These words were engraved with chalk on to the back of the
door of my room 12 A at Pala house…
Along the years,even
as I lost my faith in god, even as I threw all the petty superstitions down the
drain, even as I cursed my life at some point for not going the way I dreamed
of, I used to wonder if the route life was taking me was just the route I should
be going.
I do not doubt it now. Because I wouldn’t have met the best
people in my life if I hadn’t drifted in the wind. You and them were the sign
posts that assures me life is going the right way…
The first in chronology was you, mr Theatrical Bodhavan…
Such fine is the balance that if I even studied a bit more
or studied a little less at school I wouldn’t have ended up at Pala. And it
would have been quite a thing to miss!!!
The one sentence I have told many a time in this blog is “this
is where I lived for the first time”, which is a sum total of many firsts…
In the “firsts” list of my life, there is one very special “first”
related with you. You are the first one I ever opened up my whole mind. I was
always the “chaluan” and the “talkative” they say I was.But this TVMite had to drag his ass all the
way to Kottayam, specifically, to Pala house, to have a really frank and open
conversation with a friend for the first time in his life.
People post in net that Librans are good listeners. I know
for sure that I was more of an interrupter. But you could take it. You still
do. Every single call,even now, I juz break your sentences up with some
unrelated thing. Well, you were the better listener of the both of us.
Be it in front of the brilliant’s fence-by-the-coffee-shop
throughout lunch break, or pala house terrace throughout nights, or even now, every
moment with you, the talks are incessant. It never ends!!!
My pranks too. I know they get annoyingly naughty at times.
Somehow, am very blessed to have friends like you, Bella, Venki, Kiran, Arjun, Sabari
etc etc who can bear with it , that too, happily and get along me in spite of
my little pranks. (Clint eastwoodnte kochumonum paatinte rajaavum prank for
instance).
I admit one thing frankly, I wouldn’t be able to bear a chaluan
like me, cracking silly jokes even at some pretty serious questions and
situations. Bearing with me is no easy task, I know. And in that matter, all my
friends amaze me. I have often heard many people scorn it in private and in
public, but I don’t mind them, because you and my closest friends have accepted
that part of me happily…
There is a world that looks at me and sees nothing but a
chaluan. There are people out there who are entirely wrong about me. There are
people who have judged me by the I don’t care attitude I have put up in some
hard parts and thought of me as exactly the “I don’t care” person… But I don’t feel
the need to explain it to them that I really do care and I put up that attitude
coz that’s the only way I can keep from getting hurt and carry on no matter
what… and here is a friend who watches me secretly when I watch something with
a secret wish and see how I ache for it in my eye…
Who needs the world. I’d rather have friends like you who don’t
need “paraphrases” “or “my guide to make you understand me” to understand me.
My little world. My close circle of friends… that’s enough.
And you were the first friend I “adopted”. Its with you that
I started making my close friends circle a very universal one i.e I shared my
friends with you. Venki or anil or many of my school friends for instance. Its awe
inspiring a thing that venki calls you up when he is here. The only root both
of you have in common is me. No alma
maters, no Nostalgias binding you two. Yet all this connection… aint that amazing?
I love having this connected web of friends… I love my close friends to be
close friends to each other too…and my friends have lived upto dat :D
Of coz, Maktub…it was written…it was not written on
vocations or path of destiny. It was written on people I shall meet in course
of life… and am happy it was written this way. You, a truckload of pala friends,
a couple of very loyal and true friends at college…
maybe 98 outta 100 couldn’t find a friend in me, but just a
chaluan. But the one or two who did find the friend in me, I am sure, wouldn’t trade
me for a 100 other friends…would you??? ;)
And let me conclude this one with a special note…
“one thing I like about ajith is that he is open to new
ideas, books, songs, films etc etc. vere aarum adhikam paranjitillatha, ennaal
oraalo matto soochipicha books aanu avan sadarana railwaystationil ninnu
vangaaru. He is a variety man with movies( and with paatu. He heard a lot from
my downloaded songs. Nalla patience undavum ennu thonnunille???”
This is from the only letter I wrote from pala to my
schoolfriends that I never let you read. The only one. And that too because it
mentioned this… I thought it very premature to let you read that… Now it feels
right that you see it…
:)
Love
Hari
PS- and you have one big achievement to your name… you
opened to me the universality of music and movies… had we not met, would there
have been even one album of “my movies”…ever??? I still wonder…I wouldn’t have
roamed this much into music without your suggestions. I don’t have a doubt in
that…
Vaaranam Aayiram was released at Pala the same time as the Joshiy flick “20-20” starring all the etc etc of Malayalam industry :DThe whole crowd was eager to go for 20-20. Mammoka mohanlal fans tammilulla chooderiya kaliyaakalukalum okkeyaayi.Aake santhosham. Thidukam. Ticket kittanamallo.
Ithinte idayilaanu njnum ajithum varanam aayiram kaanam ennu theerumanichath. Oppam kootaan shramichu palareyum. Aarum vanilla. Padathne patti onnum ariyilla. Gautham Menon aanu ennu ariyam. Pulliye njngalku randu perkum ishtamaayrnu. Paalayil aayathkond tv-yil trailer onnum kandittumilla. Sooryayude 6 pack posterukal maathram. We had no idea what the film was about. Nor did we know what the name meant. We expected some thing like vettayadu vilayaadu…
“Minnale”, “vettayaadu vilayaadu” enna randu padangalum avayile paatukalum ishtamullath kaaranam njnum ajithum gautham menon padathnu povan thane urachu(annu njn suryayude oru padam polum kanditilla!!!) anyway we went to the yuvarani-maharani theatre complex to watch it when all our friends , romans and countries went to watch 20-20…
Theatril oru thirakkum illa. And about that I would just say, Palayil njngal kandidatholam oru padavum angane odiyitilla, except 20-20. Baaki ella idathum superhit aayi odiya mikka padangalum palayil 1 week okkeyavum odiyitundaava…
The movie snatched our hearts with its title credits itself. Mudinja feel. Anyway , if I start abt the movie I will go on writing 2 or 3 articles about it :D so am going to the song in the spotlight…
I still remember watching the song so vivdly sitting in the taazhathe seats(not balcony) all awed by the breathtaking visuals for which gautham menon is still famous for and above all by the vocals by HARIHARAN. I have always loved his voice
Sattendru maarudhu vaanilai Penne un mel pizhai
Aa bhagam kettapol romanjam vannath ippozhum ormayundu. Right now I got a gooseflesh thinking of that memory :D I was in love with song right from the 1st stanza.
Was literally absorbing the song as I heard it. Enjoyed every moment of the song. Visuals and song. So damn btfl… But you all know what happens to songs. They end.
This one also ended.L we didn’t want it to…
I wanted more of it. Kept watching the movie wishing the song would come back at some point. Anyway, as jingles , in sad overtunes it did come. But that couldn’t quench my thirst. I wanted the song one more time…but I dint get it
Anyway I was very very happy after the movie. We were very happy we didn’t go with the crowd. Had we gone, we would have missed the movie!!! I still wonder dat part. Would I have watched it if I missed it at pala… the movie deserved a theatre viewing.And with that aspect in mind, I would have missed the movie for life …or regretted abt not having watched it in theatres…
Ajith and me discussed our favourite parts (discussed the whole movie :P ) we evendiscussed about gautham menon’s issue with 1st love in movies. “He kills 1st wife in Vettayad vilayaad and now again the 1st girl in varanam aayiram. Maybe he had issue in 1st love” kinda thing ( well it went the same with vinnai thaandi varuvaaya :D) and at some point we started discussing the songs.
We were in love with all the songs. The most enchanting ones for me then were Nenjukul as a melody and mundhinam as a song I kept relating to my parents. Later we fell in love with ava enna too. But that was after we had access to the songs,ie at our houses.
Well, we tried humming the song all the way to palahouse n discussing how beautifully it was sung. We were extra eager to share it with Nidarsan, Richard and Nikhil S. the three music loversof pala house.
Next morning, we told nido(nidarsan) abt the song. But couldn’t recollect the tune. We kepttrying had to remember it. Both ajith and me. We kept saying “aliya athil hariharan padiya oru paatundeda. Kidilam.. verum kidilam. Randu vari undu, stanza end cheyumbo,hariharan verum kidilamaaytaa avdam padiye. Neeyum varendathaarnu” etc. But we couldn’t remember the tune!
And later that day I was on my way to tharavaadu suddenly I remembered the tune of “ Sattendru maarudhu vaanilai,Penne un mel pizhai”.
I ran :D
I still remember running to nidarsan who was at that moment near the end of the corridor near reference, that led to tharavaadu. And I hummed it faintly, the way I remembered it :D
I still remember his face then… :D could see the eagerness to hear the real one in it…
He was very eager. So was I. so was Ajith. I wish he would tell about how much that song meant to him,some time…
We had no means to hear it unless it came up during the time we had dinner at Roys canteen. Afteral mobiles were prohibited in palahouse. I was wishing to go home to hear it over and over again…
So was ajith. We fell in love with all the songs of the movie.
Ava enna was given the title “the second Love failure anthem”. First was “venmathiye” from minnale .
Mundhinam has so many stories to it. Daey will come later on if I keep writing (and as always I hope no one will be eagerly reading any of these n hence I know I can take my time ;)
Anyway,during the next week, nido took me thru sum small idavazhi to a paying guest house from where he gave me a chance to listen the song again from a friend’s mobile.
The song was an oasis for a hopeless romantic like me.
I know how much I longed to hear it one more time.
And I remember hours, hours and hours, almost till 3 in the morning (just like the 3:00am in my computer clock rite now :P) that I sat hearing to it in front of the computer during the next visit home. Wasn’t enough though I heard it every moment I could.
Back to pala, we all wished to catch a glimpse of it in sum tamil channel wen we went for break to Roys canteen…
Iam damn sure that all my fellow “nenjukkul peididum”-loving-palahouse-mates would have their own storys of longing to it… and I wish I could hear them from them…
And lemme add one last detail to this article in capital leters and in manjesh sir style…
well it doesn’t stop with one ajith… I know many who started off guitaaring-guitaringafter that movie :D not many did guitar for long :D well some did survive :D
It was a song close to our hearts, from a movie for our lifetime, on our life’s most memorable year
And at this odd morning hour, am signing off to get a night’s sleep as the day begins :P
In the last post I mentioned the first letter I got from my father. Here it comes...
Thiruvananthapuram 01.01.2009
Dear Hari, I had no doubt on what I Should be doing first in the new year. Now it is 30 minutes past 12 and I think we spent these minutes together last year. This year the experiences had not been that pleasant. Anyhow I am doing something that I always wanted to do , used to do in the past but lost amidst the frantic journey that was over the past few years. I had always been an ardent letter writer and can you believe that I used to write more than 20 letters a day during my MBBS days, sometimes it exceeding even 30 and I used to sent to all my well wishers, friends etc !!! That also at a time when I didn’t have enough for my food; yet managed to get the stamps. Over a period of time life changed. There was (is) enough to eat; But cant because of paucity of time or because of the fear of diabetes, Hypertension and Hypercholesterolemia. I am envious of you in that you have enough to eat at that age but are not eating!!! What a paradox !!!! I think , I am obsessed about eating and feeding since that was the lone concern during my childhood and Boyhood days. There was never enough to eat. The only concern during those days used to be food and food alone. Those are days long bygone!
I was pretty sure that the New Year should start with something that I always wanted to restart; yet failed because of lack of assertiveness. Yes , I am doing that. I am restarting the old habit of writing letters. I wanted to restart letter writing by writing a letter to my closest friend or relative. When I sat in front of the computer I had no doubt. Now I have the combination of both in one person and am writing to him.
My life’s accounts till 2008 need to be audited. I find that there are loses and gains; the later far exceeding the former. Even then I have the regret that I am not remaining as futuristic and pragmatic as I used to be when I was of our age. Journey from a house with thatched roof and no electricity to the current position had never been smooth. But it was always gratifying. The indomitable spirit with which it was undertaken all these years , I am afraid is failing gradually. Maybe because of ageing. Or because of unforeseen developments. I know, I am distracting you from your studies. But cant help. I think , I am a happy man. Especially when I see the man you are sometimes!!!!
(some part omitted. purely family matters)
Indira is very nice, of course. But my efforts time and time again to impress upon her about the ‘priorities one should have in life’ have failed miserably. Her world is different. Of course, she is lovable and loving> ‘Indiscriminate love’ is also dangerous. You may be a ‘universal lover’. Yes, you love everyone. Great. But I want you to love me a little more since you are my only son. These arguments don’t go well with Indira.
Unfortunately , I am a lot more sensualistic and sentimentalist and can’t bear even the thought that she loves me among all the others whom she loves- Other relatives, patients, “friends, romans and countrymen!!!!!!” . In her priorities where do we stand? I don’t know. Of course love is not mutually exclusive. You can love more than one person without affecting either. But, I always want to be loved more. I always want my family members like you, kunchi and manu to be loved more by her. But she fails to impress upon me that she devotes her unconditional love on us. In my special setting it’s a tragedy. I like to be loved( being the youngest in the family, that’s the natural way) and loved. I like the expressions of love. One should not only love me but also express and show that he/she loves me. Then only I am contended and happy. The only two people who impress that sort of a feeling in me are you and ‘vava’. In the presence of both of you , I have a feeling that I am in the company of someone who loves me and that is shown and expressed. Years ago I used to have such a feeling in the presence of Indira Unfortunately , I am afraid She is not able to impress upon me the same was as she used to do during those years of yore. Could be my apprehension. Unfortunately she does not have the time or skills to convince me the other way round.
I want you to put in a little more weight. Once you were exactly the way I painted your picture in my mind. Now you don’t look the ‘smart’ ‘mannish’ and ‘robust’ young man that I wanted to be my son. You could be that. Not to impress or convince me but to live in this era of high competition and rat race. Your choices are excellent, your determination is great, your tastes are pucca, your ambition is admirable, but your adamancy sometimes is self-destructive. These are my observations. Please try to overcome that ‘self destructive adamancy’, try to look at people from their perspective, believe that putting on some weight or having a good physique is not a sin and leave aside your rebelliousness because I used to be far more rebellious than you at your age and I now regret on that rebelliousness. I strongly believe that my one and only son should not regret on something in future that I have amply regretted because all good things that a teacher can teach are to be for the benefit of his progeny first and you are to learn from my short comings. If I fail in impressing upon you on my shortcomings and failures and make you learn from them I am not only a poor parent but also a poor teacher. I don’t like either of these titles!!!! So, please help me to be a good parent and good teacher- which I always strived for and am striving even now.
Wishing you a very happy ,prosperous and virtuous 2009 and all the years ahead,
With love, Achan
P.S:- These are random thoughts and the letter is totally unedited, unchecked for grammar and spelling!!! It is written in the way I thought and Could be literal Malayalam thinking in some places!!!
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This was the first time i got a letter from my fatherin my life.That was at pala. First in a series of letters which ended at pala itslef.
If u ask me( no one wud ask) why i like this one I have a multitude of reasons. Ellathilum upari oro pravasyam ethu vaayikumbozhum I see dat we are the same...me and achan... One whole para he complains abt amma. When he feels dat d oder person doesnt spend enuf time with him, if he feels ignored he complains a lot about that. A lot. He wud feel sad abt dat, feel bad abt dat. He would point out to them. Sometimes chori dem. He juz wants dem bak like dey were. he juz wants more of der time. More of thier love n care. What about me ? Am I any different? (hmm der is one difference :D i blame myself. he blames d oder person) (btw vaaranam aayirathile surya and simran or krishnan and malini are the 2 ppl i relate to them. aa filmil enniku achan suryaye aanu kooduthal ishtam. dey are like our case I feel.hehe. Letteril itrayokke ammaye kuttam parayunnenkil its juz becoz he felt she didnt give enuf time for him her d time he wrote this. Happens once in a while. Made for each other i wud say. Complements each other. Completes each other. I know one thing, straight, he cant imagine a life without her...)
More than that I have one big doubt!!!!!! Alla, over use of exclamatory marks and Using 'P.S' at the end of letters okke genetically kittumo??? dis is d first of letters i got from him and athinu munne ezhuthiyirunna lettersil ulpade njn cheythirunathu achanum cheyunnu :) addition of the nex gen to this is i add smileys in lettters or offlines.
chila bhaagams vaayikumbo kannu nirayum.
I wanted to restart letter writing by writing a letter to my closest friend or relative. When I sat in front of the computer I had no doubt. Now I have the combination of both in one person and am writing to him."
this part especially. Even the 1st para where he talks abt food .vereyum undu. aah...nevermind
Though he hails me in there a lot, I am wasnt that great a thing as a son. Never reached thier expectations saying those are not wat i expect from my life. Rebelliously showing them the more they try to make me do certain things the more i wud adamantly counter it some other way... achanodu njn nerittt paranjitullathu pole..." v r d same thing...adamant ahamkaaris" hehe... dats exactly wat i told him. :D :D :D
Was always an admirer of my achan... Still i am his biggest fan. achan ee letteril ammaye kuttam parayum pole njnum edaykide achane kuttam parayaarundu...dats coz am the same thing he is...i cant stand being ignored by ppl whom i care a lot about... Had to go thru a lot of ignorance n loneliness. now i dont want them.hehe
Today is January 1st 2011. Had a intrabatch newyear celeb at college wich am not going to talk about. Randu varsangalkku munne Palayil nilkumbo kadannu poya oru newyear ratriye pattiyaanu innunjn parayaan udeshikunne. I might talk in a wild fashion or I wud be dissociated in this article. Excuse it.
Njn close frndsnte listil karuthunavare ettavum kodutal ‘salyam’ cheyunathu Paalayile karngal paranjaanu ennu ennikku thonnarundu. Avarku salyamaano ennu enikariyilla. Sometimes I do doubt if they actually get irritated wen I talk nonstop abt pala, a place they don’t know. Salyamaanenkilum out of courtesy parayaandirikunnathaanennu thonnum . I like hearing my frnds talk abt their lives. Very few do. Anyway I talk... wishing they do the same. njn parayunna athe freedm avarum edukum ennu vishvasichu kondu. But who are we to expect anything from anyone…
Whenever I talk of ‘How the year at pala was for me’ I praise it a lot. Aa appraisal was never an exaggerated one. Njn athine atra kaaryamaayi parayunnathu ente jeevithathil aaa oru varsam atra valiya oru kaaryam thanne aayirunathu kondaanu. Kooti parayunathalla. Randaamathoraalinnu athu manasilaavan onnukil ‘ayaal’um ‘njn’ aavanam. Allel enne atra nannayi ariyanam, manasilaavanam. Enthayalum valiaya sahityom pollipum thongalum onnumillathe parayaam. The memories till the moment I reached pala in one pan and the memories I got from one year at pala in d other pan of a scalesil vechu weigh cheytaal , the later one wud outweigh. Atra maatram undu oru varsam kondu ennikku kittyathellam. Dat was an intense year. Dense one. Generally about new years before pala, they were all nearly the same. Puthu varsathine kshenikaan Dooradarsanodoppam kaathirikum. Cable vannappo it became watching premier shows of movies in strmovies n hbo. “I,robot” “Lord of the rings” muthalaaya padangal kaanunathaayirunnu athuvareyulla “new year”.
But the one at Pala was really different…
It wasn’t like any other night at palahouse, d new year’s eve. Raatri palliyil kurabaanakkum mattum pokaanullavarku povaam ennu manjesh sir paranjirunnu. Thottapurathalle Kizhathadiyoor palli.
Avarodoppam kurbanakku poyallo ennu alochichu. Pokaandiruanthinu pinnil oru rasakaramaaya kaaranam aanu undaayirunne. Onnalla.Randennam. Njn valare kotichu oru plan ittirunnu. Palahousil mikka room-ilum ulla oru sadanam aanu Alarm clock. Njn mikkavarodum paranju “Krityam 12 mani aavumbol nammukelarkum Alarm ON aakaam, for one whole minute” ennu. Most agreed. Cheeti povaruthe ennu tanne aashichu. Many had agreed.( Palarum palliyil povumennu ariyaamarunnu). Allathavar ellarum ente oppam undaavumennu vishvasicu njn kaathirunnu new yearne. Muriyile Light okke off aakki. Vaatilkal ninnu piller palliyil pokuanthum nokki ninnathokke ormayundu. Cheruppum eduthittu koode poyaalo ennalochichu. But vendennu vechu. Alarm clock…hehe
Der was a second reason too. I wanted to wish venki new year at 12. He was utterly helping and supporting d whole year. Palahousil oru coin fone maatre ullu. Dat to in front of Biji sir’s room. Manjesh sir pallyil kurbanakku poyyi. Surjith sir maatre ullu. Bijisirnu 10:30nu uranganam. Raavile 4:30nu enneetu karangi nadakkum ennu kettitundu. I have never seen dat time at palahouse :D :D enthaayalum. Kootathil valiya salyam illatha aal surjith sir alle ,so permission tarumennu manasil vicharichu njn surjith sirne kaanaan poyyi. Chennu aavasyam paranju. He said “ ippo thanne(you) vilikaan samatichal baaki ullavarum permissionnum chodichu varum. Athu paada. Venda.” I pleaded. It was nearly 11:55 den. He didn’t permit me. Varsathil aadyam cheyaan aagrahicha kaaryam turn down cheythaal ningalkku enthu thonnum. The first wish of the year nadakilla enna idea itself didn’t feel dat good. Neraaya maargathil cheyaam ennu vicharicha njn mandanaayi. Aa aagraham talli kalayenda oru kaaryom illayirunnu sirnu. Ofcoz 10 per vilichottey ennu chodichennu tanne irikattey. ella divasom chodikunna kaaryamallalo. Njngal oru call newyearnu vilichal sirnu enthaa nashtam??? So ner vazhi upekschichu..sirmaarayalum atra ahamkaaram paadillalo ;)
Njn nere paaathu paathu coin fonil poyyi. Dialed venki’s number taking care not to make much noise as Biji sir wud wake up if I did. Fone edutatu venkiyude achan aayirunnu.
Paavam venki. Cherukane nattapaathirakku vilichu new year wish cheytha kondu oru mechom undaayilla. Bodham vende!!!! But Oru mechom undaayilla ennu paranjathu njn tirichedukunnu. I wont ever forget dat. Avanum marakilla. Edaykide paranju chirikaarundu tammil. Hehe.
Enthayaalum itrem kazhinjappo Biji sirnte roomil annakam kettu. njn fone vechitt odi. Muriyil chennu Alarm clock on aaki. Ormicha chillar ennodoppam alarm clock ittu. There was no synchrony . palarum palapol ittu. Chilar nerathey niruthi. Chillar taamasichu niruthi. Kurachu pere alarm vechullu. . Best part of it was that sum who went to the church kept the alrms set. niruthaan aal illandu athu adikunnekaranam sir erangi nokkuka undaayi.Urangi poyyi chillar. Marannu poyyi chilar. But it was ok. Ingane oru idea okke thonnumbo nammal manasil kaanunathum kelkunathum ellam are the ideal conditions. Manasil vicharichirunathu was hearing all those alarms together.When u compare wat u really get in life with wat u had in mind, wat u wished for, u will mostly feel disappointed. The few alarms dat accompanied mine, the small fraction of ppl, those are wat u actually have. Dissapointing it may seem, u cant have the world. But u can have a little of it. Sometimes u have to feel ok with it… innathe new year celebsnum ithe feeling aayirunnu. Leave it neway…
Ethu kazhinju njn pathiye erangi nadannu ground flooril palliyil pokaathavarude roomsil new year wish cheyaanirangi. Sen S Puthukulam and sajeesh’s roominte munnil ethi. It was near gohul’s room. Biji sir roomil ninnu erangiyaal face cheythu nilkunnathu SEN-inte roominte vaathililottavum. Dats d way usually. Njngal Sen-inte roominte munnil ninnu kathi vekkuvaaarunnu. Bahalam kettu Biji sir erangi. Njn chaadi seninte roomil keri. Njn bathroomil keri olichu ninnu. Pala housile oru major rule is dat u cant enter sumone else’s room , not even during break. Aa bathroomil nilkunathu tanne oru shikshayaayirunnu( vallapozhum vrithi aakunathil thettilaarunnu SENee). Sir sen-inodum gohulnodum samsaarchu ninnu. Ingottu varalle ingottu varalle ennu prarthichu njnum nilpaayi. Hehe.oduvil Sir keri povunundaayirunilla. He stayed for some more time. Ennittu avarodu kidanurangaan paranjittu pullikaaran keri kidannu. Ennitaanu njn erangiye aa bathroomil ninnu.
Den I went to my room. Palliyil poyavar palarum tiichu varunundaarunnu. Manjesh sirum vannu. Dat day he was liberal. Karangi nadanilla. Nere muriyil tanne poyyi. Vishnu came around. Njngal amodinte roominte munnil ninnu. Afsal, who is now at tvm Dental college, Richard, amod, arun raajendran ennivarum vishnuvum pinne njnum. Tammil wish okke cheythittu Vishnu made a suggestion. He said he wud talk of his old love story. his KV love. Every one was ready to hear. The girl he had crush on. Penkochinum ariyaamarunnu avannu crush undennu, but she was silent as her frnds were against it ennna gathiyil pokunna kadha. I cant say more about it I beliv… But dat isnt the point. The point is dat he was telling the story as in a screenplay or script. Describing each incident ‘frame by frame’ as if it was a movie :D adding more to this, he wud describe each ‘frame’ minutely.” Avalum avalde frndsum ente ethire nadannu varuaa. Mathilinodu chernu aanu avaru varunne.njn enge vasathe mathilnodu chernaanu varunne….” Only he can do it. 10 minute thikayum munne tanne ithoru vazhikku povilla ennu manasilaaya richardum amodum thadi tappi. Afsalum arunum 20 minute kazhinju mungi. I was left alone with Vishnu. He talked on and on. Truthfully I wasn’t bored . We talked standing near the window near my room on the corridor in front of joel’s and sankaran’s rooms. Annu avan nidarsane pattyum okke paranjirunnu. About ernakulam . About KV life. Avante veetil chila kaaryangal . About the expectations he has to keep, Since his bro was an entrance topper. Love story paranju aa vazhikku kaadu keri pokum engottenkilum.ennittu tirichu varum.ennitu valla vetyasavum undo??? Pinnem pazhaya pallavi…annu avan 3 mani kazhiyum vare samsaarichu. And we didn’t even reach half of his lovestory!!!!(on the hostel day nite also he came to my room and finished of the story at 3:30. Etra manikoor eduthu aa kadha parayaan ennalochikanam… hehe.Anyway I don’t know if he still fancies the same girl or if he moved on. Annu avan paranjathil koodutal onnum ennikariyilla…wudnt you feel like knowing wat happened next if u spent nearly 7 to 8 hours hearing it??? Wish he will tell me some day :D Raavile enneekaan paadonnumillarunnu. But classil unarnirikaan nalla paadayirunnu. Xmas kazhinju vannapol muthal njn lunch kazhichu thudangiyirunathu kondu uchaykulla classinu oralpam urakom thoongiyirunnu. Achane vilichappo he said he had posted a letter. Dat he took d decision of restarting d habit of writing letters . I love dat letter. hmmm…nokkate athu post cheyaan patumo ennu…
Dat was my pala new year. Entirely different to the one I had in my life prior to pala... I was about some ideas. Some ppl. Not juz a first time on television thing… :D
Innale raatri njn venkiyude veetil aayirunnu. Editing fotos ,putting funny captions for our batch tour pics to show for our new year celebs kathiying with venki. Pani okke theernu kidannappo 3 mani kazhinju. Wanted to make this new year an unforgettable one. First time trying to co sumthing… Like the alarm idea was this new year celeb idea,juz that this was of a larger scale…Ofcourse this was unforgettable in a sense. Wont ever forget this… So today am going to thank some people… The people who switched ON their alarm Clocks with me…and those who stood with me this year to try for the new year celebs for all the support n positiveness . Maybe both didn’t work the way we wud have liked it to, the way we wanted it to be. But whatever v had, v had… I don’t regret having tried. Maybe I felt disappointed at some point. But then the world never has “ideal conditions”. Am happy I tried. Happy to know there are some who wud switch on their alarms with me when I ask … Thank you guys for the support. Thanks a lot… a lot…
Roysile tv lunch breakinum teabreakinum valikuneram food adikaan varumbozhum ON aavum. Mikka pozhhum koode ulla aarelum chennu ON aakkum. Kazhichu kazhinjaalum samaay theerum vare avide irikum ellarum,wich of coz used to irritate “kozhuva chechi”.This was our window to new realeases. Ishtapetta paatukalum Delhi 6ntem vaaranam aayirathitem trailerukalum okke kaanan etra kotichaanu kaaathirunnirunne !!!!
4:30 to 7 – Study time
This time period was different for me at 2 different times. Pazhayathokke marannu thudangi ennu thonni thudangiya samayathu I used dis time to revise without fail. From January on ,that’s when I started eating lunch to put on weight for AFMC my dat time’s dream, I used to exercise during this time. 15 mins vare neelum vidahthil ore spotil ninnulla jogging,half crunches wich were increasing with each day, pushups and muriyile kasera kondu swayam undaakiya excercises , Nikhil joe jacobnte dump bells vechullava okke. Ennittu evidelum muscle vecho …athumilla :P Manjapitham pidipedum vare exercise correct aayi nadannu . Allenkil over aayi pokunundaayirunnu ennu parayunathilum thettilla (over ennu paranjathu lyk raatri padikaan irikumbo urakkam vannal pushups edukuka,crunches edukuka. Chumma irikumbo edukuka) Pinne kaaka kulichal kokkavilla ennu parayum pole exercise cheythathukondu undaayiruna ee narunthu body angane tanne ninnenkilum vallya pulli onnumaayilla...
Ee study timente avasanam powercut varunna samayanagal undaayirunnu . annokke nalla rasama.oruthantelo vallom mezhukuthiri kaanum. So chumma samayam kalayendi varumaarunnu. I mean chumma irikaamayirunnu.hehe…
Reference poyavar thirike varunna neramaavum 6:45 muthal angottu. Pinne njngade study roomil vechirikunna arrival departure mark cheyenda “bhavana”yude padamulla registeril oppukalum kalla oppkalum idunavarudey varavum avar kondu varunna brilliant canteenile fud pothikalum newsukalum kelkaan studyroomil njngal kuthi irikum. Biji sirnte vaka cheetem kittum athinu. But aareyaa ennu vecha pulikaaran parayuka!!!
Ithaanu palahousile ettavum koodutal patrolingum alambum paditom ellam nadakunna samayam. 1st floor study roomil alambinte pooramaayirikum.BUt avidathe alambine patti ennikatra ariyilla ketto. Purame ninnu kanditundu. Ente Flooril atra valiya alambanmaaronnumillarunnu. Alambumaarunnu. Njn alambu ishtapedunvar undel poyyirunnu alambumaarunnu Ajithnte flooril entha sambhavichirunne ennathine patti oru separate article ezhuthi tarumo ennu ente oru request undu. Malayalathil ninte studyroomile vaikuneram 7:30kku shehsamulla alambu or general vivaranam. I know u were the signal boy to inform if manjesh sir got out of his room. nee tanne paranja mathi
Nerathey paranja pole 10:30 vare urangaan paadilallo. Ennalum sir erangumbo unarthaan paranjittu kidakkum chila divasam. Nikhil joe jacobne pidichu avan bodhamillandu ninnu pirupirutha oru divasam chirikaaamo aa avastha kandittu ennu samsayichu ninnu poyyitundu. Cherukante vaathilil njn kure kotti sir varum munne. Pootha urakathil enna kelkaanaa!!! sir kottiyappo unarnu. Bodham maatram illarunnu :D
Ee samayathulla paripaadikal varies with days.
On Tuesdays we used to have “meeting”. Palahousile jeevitatil oru aashvaaasam. Some tuesdays stand out. I used to wait for Tuesdays den. Thottu munne mondayil kazhinja weekly testnte rank vaayana n remarks by manjesh sir okke kazhinjal pinne paatum chillapo mimicryum okke kaanum.njnum paadiyitundu . Guest aayi stephen sir chillappo varum. Ajithum VIshnuvum Richardum Renjuvum vere orupaaadu perum paadiyirunnu paadiyirunnu. Arun Rajendrante “palavattam kaathu ninnu njn” n baaluvinte "action song" okke orma varunnu. Meeting kazhinju pirinjal manjesh sir kure neram kazhinju varum report cards sign cheyaan.
Baaki divasangalil this was mostly study time. Pinne njn ee samayathu padikaan pattathe vannal kathezhuthukayo study roomil poyyirikukayo,desp aanel palahouse entrancinte avide poyyi angottum ingottum nadakukayo skool magazine eduthu vaayikukayo autografbook vaayikukayo okke cheyum…parayaam palapozhaayi. Ellam koodi ippo paranja enganna!!! :D
Beyond 10:30...
In my room it wud be dark. Fan on aayirikilla . current bill ente achan vannadaykumo!!!! Kattilil njn kaanum. Divaswapnams n from der all the way to sleep. 10:30nu vendi kaathirikukayaavum kidaakaan. Hehe... initially baaki palarum cheyunathum kandu raatri kuthi irikum padikaanennum parnaju. Pinne manasilaayi athente reethiyalla ennu. Avasaanam urakkaksheenam kaaranam adutha divasam pakalum padikaan pattilla adutha divasam urakkam varum nerathey. Its with this realization that I started using my daytime well for study….
Athava urangiyillel u mite notice a dark outline walking with a red empty bucket, sneaking up the stairs as if he is going to spread the clothes he washedin the terrace.POkunna vazhikku pidikapettal thuni virikaan poyathaa ennu parayaana ee bucket. Ajithne terracil vilichu varuthiyiitu irrunnu kathi vekkum raatri muzhuvan. Terracil irrunnu 12th vare ulla jeevitha kadhakal, Ms.Xnu AFMCyil chennittu ezhuthumennu paranja kathu, abt all my frnds at tvm, veetile presnams, annu vaayinokkiya penkochungale patti(personal aayi avare patti thonunnathu. wich never went on to paradhoosanam level. aareyokke kaanan kollam ennu thonni n all. mikkavardem perukal ariyillarunnu.dat was a drawback? I don’t think so. V never lukd for biodatas. Ours was “considerate vaayinottam” since we both have sisters n v know wat a brother feels wen a guy stares at his is in sum absurd way or cracks a comment at her or make her uncomfortable by staring. So njngal valya vayinokkikal aayirunenkilum orikalum njngal nokkiyirunathu avar ariyaatha reethikku aayirunnu. We never did it to show off.we did it for vaayinottam.Say, nalla vayinokkikal nt famous ones coz we did it for the spirit of it rther than for “show”. Dat according to me is successful art of vaayinottam. Vaayinokkuvaaaanennu aarkum manasilaavandu vaayinokunathalle sherikum athinte vijayam tanne!!! Veruthey ellarem ariyichond vaayinokkan ethu pottanum pattum.( Like saying u can be a mass murderer easily.but its hard to be a silent assassin in Hitman style) Anyway angane ulla vayinokkiakal pempillerkokke ariyaamayirunnu. Ennem ajithnem polulavare aarkum ariyathumilla. We were secret agent like vayinokkis ennu paranju aashvasikaam. Oru penninum arinjoodatha vaayinokkikal. Pinne njngale okke aaru kaananaa. Allelum iruttine kaanan pattilalo…
Ithippo oru avadhi divasam pala housil ninnal sambahvikunna kaaraymalle. Varunudu avadhi allatha oru general divasathine patti aduthu tanne …hehe :D
Bore aavunundo? Sahikaaam, allel nerittu parayaam. Donno if anyone is reading ne of this crap. But neway am going to keep writing. Adutha article aayo aayoo ennu chodikunna tutukuttikku vendi…
