In the last post I mentioned the first letter I got from my father. Here it comes...
Thiruvananthapuram
01.01.2009
Dear Hari,
I had no doubt on what I Should be doing first in the new year. Now it is 30 minutes past 12 and I think we spent these minutes together last year. This year the experiences had not been that pleasant. Anyhow I am doing something that I always wanted to do , used to do in the past but lost amidst the frantic journey that was over the past few years. I had always been an ardent letter writer and can you believe that I used to write more than 20 letters a day during my MBBS days, sometimes it exceeding even 30 and I used to sent to all my well wishers, friends etc !!! That also at a time when I didn’t have enough for my food; yet managed to get the stamps. Over a period of time life changed. There was (is) enough to eat; But cant because of paucity of time or because of the fear of diabetes, Hypertension and Hypercholesterolemia. I am envious of you in that you have enough to eat at that age but are not eating!!! What a paradox !!!! I think , I am obsessed about eating and feeding since that was the lone concern during my childhood and Boyhood days. There was never enough to eat. The only concern during those days used to be food and food alone. Those are days long bygone!
I was pretty sure that the New Year should start with something that I always wanted to restart; yet failed because of lack of assertiveness. Yes , I am doing that. I am restarting the old habit of writing letters. I wanted to restart letter writing by writing a letter to my closest friend or relative. When I sat in front of the computer I had no doubt. Now I have the combination of both in one person and am writing to him.
My life’s accounts till 2008 need to be audited. I find that there are loses and gains; the later far exceeding the former. Even then I have the regret that I am not remaining as futuristic and pragmatic as I used to be when I was of our age. Journey from a house with thatched roof and no electricity to the current position had never been smooth. But it was always gratifying. The indomitable spirit with which it was undertaken all these years , I am afraid is failing gradually. Maybe because of ageing. Or because of unforeseen developments. I know, I am distracting you from your studies. But cant help. I think , I am a happy man. Especially when I see the man you are sometimes!!!!
(some part omitted. purely family matters)
Indira is very nice, of course. But my efforts time and time again to impress upon her about the ‘priorities one should have in life’ have failed miserably. Her world is different. Of course, she is lovable and loving> ‘Indiscriminate love’ is also dangerous. You may be a ‘universal lover’. Yes, you love everyone. Great. But I want you to love me a little more since you are my only son. These arguments don’t go well with Indira.
Unfortunately , I am a lot more sensualistic and sentimentalist and can’t bear even the thought that she loves me among all the others whom she loves- Other relatives, patients, “friends, romans and countrymen!!!!!!” . In her priorities where do we stand? I don’t know. Of course love is not mutually exclusive. You can love more than one person without affecting either. But, I always want to be loved more. I always want my family members like you, kunchi and manu to be loved more by her. But she fails to impress upon me that she devotes her unconditional love on us. In my special setting it’s a tragedy. I like to be loved( being the youngest in the family, that’s the natural way) and loved. I like the expressions of love. One should not only love me but also express and show that he/she loves me. Then only I am contended and happy. The only two people who impress that sort of a feeling in me are you and ‘vava’. In the presence of both of you , I have a feeling that I am in the company of someone who loves me and that is shown and expressed. Years ago I used to have such a feeling in the presence of Indira Unfortunately , I am afraid She is not able to impress upon me the same was as she used to do during those years of yore. Could be my apprehension. Unfortunately she does not have the time or skills to convince me the other way round.
I want you to put in a little more weight. Once you were exactly the way I painted your picture in my mind. Now you don’t look the ‘smart’ ‘mannish’ and ‘robust’ young man that I wanted to be my son. You could be that. Not to impress or convince me but to live in this era of high competition and rat race. Your choices are excellent, your determination is great, your tastes are pucca, your ambition is admirable, but your adamancy sometimes is self-destructive. These are my observations. Please try to overcome that ‘self destructive adamancy’, try to look at people from their perspective, believe that putting on some weight or having a good physique is not a sin and leave aside your rebelliousness because I used to be far more rebellious than you at your age and I now regret on that rebelliousness. I strongly believe that my one and only son should not regret on something in future that I have amply regretted because all good things that a teacher can teach are to be for the benefit of his progeny first and you are to learn from my short comings. If I fail in impressing upon you on my shortcomings and failures and make you learn from them I am not only a poor parent but also a poor teacher. I don’t like either of these titles!!!! So, please help me to be a good parent and good teacher- which I always strived for and am striving even now.
Wishing you a very happy ,prosperous and virtuous 2009 and all the years ahead,
With love,
Achan
P.S:- These are random thoughts and the letter is totally unedited, unchecked for grammar and spelling!!! It is written in the way I thought and Could be literal Malayalam thinking in some places!!!
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This was the first time i got a letter from my fatherin my life.That was at pala. First in a series of letters which ended at pala itslef.
If u ask me( no one wud ask) why i like this one I have a multitude of reasons. Ellathilum upari oro pravasyam ethu vaayikumbozhum I see dat we are the same...me and achan... One whole para he complains abt amma. When he feels dat d oder person doesnt spend enuf time with him, if he feels ignored he complains a lot about that. A lot. He wud feel sad abt dat, feel bad abt dat. He would point out to them. Sometimes chori dem. He juz wants dem bak like dey were. he juz wants more of der time. More of thier love n care. What about me ? Am I any different? (hmm der is one difference :D i blame myself. he blames d oder person)
(btw vaaranam aayirathile surya and simran or krishnan and malini are the 2 ppl i relate to them. aa filmil enniku achan suryaye aanu kooduthal ishtam. dey are like our case I feel.hehe. Letteril itrayokke ammaye kuttam parayunnenkil its juz becoz he felt she didnt give enuf time for him her d time he wrote this. Happens once in a while. Made for each other i wud say. Complements each other. Completes each other. I know one thing, straight, he cant imagine a life without her...)
More than that I have one big doubt!!!!!!
Alla, over use of exclamatory marks and Using 'P.S' at the end of letters okke genetically kittumo??? dis is d first of letters i got from him and athinu munne ezhuthiyirunna lettersil ulpade njn cheythirunathu achanum cheyunnu :) addition of the nex gen to this is i add smileys in lettters or offlines.
chila bhaagams vaayikumbo kannu nirayum.
I wanted to restart letter writing by writing a letter to my closest friend or relative. When I sat in front of the computer I had no doubt. Now I have the combination of both in one person and am writing to him."
this part especially. Even the 1st para where he talks abt food .vereyum undu. aah...nevermind
Though he hails me in there a lot, I am wasnt that great a thing as a son. Never reached thier expectations saying those are not wat i expect from my life. Rebelliously showing them the more they try to make me do certain things the more i wud adamantly counter it some other way... achanodu njn nerittt paranjitullathu pole..." v r d same thing...adamant ahamkaaris" hehe... dats exactly wat i told him. :D :D :D
Was always an admirer of my achan... Still i am his biggest fan. achan ee letteril ammaye kuttam parayum pole njnum edaykide achane kuttam parayaarundu...dats coz am the same thing he is...i cant stand being ignored by ppl whom i care a lot about... Had to go thru a lot of ignorance n loneliness. now i dont want them.hehe
anyway all of u take care
love
hari
Friday, January 7, 2011
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Happy new year...
Today is January 1st 2011. Had a intrabatch newyear celeb at college wich am not going to talk about. Randu varsangalkku munne Palayil nilkumbo kadannu poya oru newyear ratriye pattiyaanu innunjn parayaan udeshikunne. I might talk in a wild fashion or I wud be dissociated in this article. Excuse it.
Njn close frndsnte listil karuthunavare ettavum kodutal ‘salyam’ cheyunathu Paalayile karngal paranjaanu ennu ennikku thonnarundu. Avarku salyamaano ennu enikariyilla. Sometimes I do doubt if they actually get irritated wen I talk nonstop abt pala, a place they don’t know. Salyamaanenkilum out of courtesy parayaandirikunnathaanennu thonnum . I like hearing my frnds talk abt their lives. Very few do. Anyway I talk... wishing they do the same. njn parayunna athe freedm avarum edukum ennu vishvasichu kondu. But who are we to expect anything from anyone…
Whenever I talk of ‘How the year at pala was for me’ I praise it a lot. Aa appraisal was never an exaggerated one. Njn athine atra kaaryamaayi parayunnathu ente jeevithathil aaa oru varsam atra valiya oru kaaryam thanne aayirunathu kondaanu. Kooti parayunathalla. Randaamathoraalinnu athu manasilaavan onnukil ‘ayaal’um ‘njn’ aavanam. Allel enne atra nannayi ariyanam, manasilaavanam. Enthayalum valiaya sahityom pollipum thongalum onnumillathe parayaam. The memories till the moment I reached pala in one pan and the memories I got from one year at pala in d other pan of a scalesil vechu weigh cheytaal , the later one wud outweigh. Atra maatram undu oru varsam kondu ennikku kittyathellam. Dat was an intense year. Dense one.
Generally about new years before pala, they were all nearly the same. Puthu varsathine kshenikaan Dooradarsanodoppam kaathirikum. Cable vannappo it became watching premier shows of movies in strmovies n hbo. “I,robot” “Lord of the rings” muthalaaya padangal kaanunathaayirunnu athuvareyulla “new year”.
But the one at Pala was really different…
It wasn’t like any other night at palahouse, d new year’s eve. Raatri palliyil kurabaanakkum mattum pokaanullavarku povaam ennu manjesh sir paranjirunnu. Thottapurathalle Kizhathadiyoor palli.
Avarodoppam kurbanakku poyallo ennu alochichu. Pokaandiruanthinu pinnil oru rasakaramaaya kaaranam aanu undaayirunne. Onnalla.Randennam.
Njn valare kotichu oru plan ittirunnu. Palahousil mikka room-ilum ulla oru sadanam aanu Alarm clock. Njn mikkavarodum paranju “Krityam 12 mani aavumbol nammukelarkum Alarm ON aakaam, for one whole minute” ennu. Most agreed. Cheeti povaruthe ennu tanne aashichu. Many had agreed.( Palarum palliyil povumennu ariyaamarunnu). Allathavar ellarum ente oppam undaavumennu vishvasicu njn kaathirunnu new yearne. Muriyile Light okke off aakki. Vaatilkal ninnu piller palliyil pokuanthum nokki ninnathokke ormayundu. Cheruppum eduthittu koode poyaalo ennalochichu. But vendennu vechu. Alarm clock…hehe
Der was a second reason too. I wanted to wish venki new year at 12. He was utterly helping and supporting d whole year. Palahousil oru coin fone maatre ullu. Dat to in front of Biji sir’s room. Manjesh sir pallyil kurbanakku poyyi. Surjith sir maatre ullu. Bijisirnu 10:30nu uranganam. Raavile 4:30nu enneetu karangi nadakkum ennu kettitundu. I have never seen dat time at palahouse :D :D enthaayalum. Kootathil valiya salyam illatha aal surjith sir alle ,so permission tarumennu manasil vicharichu njn surjith sirne kaanaan poyyi. Chennu aavasyam paranju. He said “ ippo thanne(you) vilikaan samatichal baaki ullavarum permissionnum chodichu varum. Athu paada. Venda.” I pleaded. It was nearly 11:55 den. He didn’t permit me. Varsathil aadyam cheyaan aagrahicha kaaryam turn down cheythaal ningalkku enthu thonnum. The first wish of the year nadakilla enna idea itself didn’t feel dat good. Neraaya maargathil cheyaam ennu vicharicha njn mandanaayi. Aa aagraham talli kalayenda oru kaaryom illayirunnu sirnu. Ofcoz 10 per vilichottey ennu chodichennu tanne irikattey. ella divasom chodikunna kaaryamallalo. Njngal oru call newyearnu vilichal sirnu enthaa nashtam??? So ner vazhi upekschichu..sirmaarayalum atra ahamkaaram paadillalo ;)
Njn nere paaathu paathu coin fonil poyyi. Dialed venki’s number taking care not to make much noise as Biji sir wud wake up if I did. Fone edutatu venkiyude achan aayirunnu.
“Shankar uranguvaanu” ennu venkiyude achan paranju. But vilichunarthi uncle fone avanu koduthu.
“Aliyaa…”
“mmmm”
“happy new year”
“mmmm”
“Bodhamilleda? Urakathilaano”
“mmmmm”
Njn onnu chammi “enna naale vilikaam”
Again “mmmmm”
Paavam venki. Cherukane nattapaathirakku vilichu new year wish cheytha kondu oru mechom undaayilla. Bodham vende!!!! But Oru mechom undaayilla ennu paranjathu njn tirichedukunnu. I wont ever forget dat. Avanum marakilla. Edaykide paranju chirikaarundu tammil. Hehe.
Enthayaalum itrem kazhinjappo Biji sirnte roomil annakam kettu. njn fone vechitt odi. Muriyil chennu Alarm clock on aaki. Ormicha chillar ennodoppam alarm clock ittu. There was no synchrony . palarum palapol ittu. Chilar nerathey niruthi. Chillar taamasichu niruthi. Kurachu pere alarm vechullu. . Best part of it was that sum who went to the church kept the alrms set. niruthaan aal illandu athu adikunnekaranam sir erangi nokkuka undaayi.Urangi poyyi chillar. Marannu poyyi chilar. But it was ok. Ingane oru idea okke thonnumbo nammal manasil kaanunathum kelkunathum ellam are the ideal conditions. Manasil vicharichirunathu was hearing all those alarms together.When u compare wat u really get in life with wat u had in mind, wat u wished for, u will mostly feel disappointed. The few alarms dat accompanied mine, the small fraction of ppl, those are wat u actually have. Dissapointing it may seem, u cant have the world. But u can have a little of it. Sometimes u have to feel ok with it… innathe new year celebsnum ithe feeling aayirunnu. Leave it neway…
Ethu kazhinju njn pathiye erangi nadannu ground flooril palliyil pokaathavarude roomsil new year wish cheyaanirangi. Sen S Puthukulam and sajeesh’s roominte munnil ethi. It was near gohul’s room. Biji sir roomil ninnu erangiyaal face cheythu nilkunnathu SEN-inte roominte vaathililottavum. Dats d way usually. Njngal Sen-inte roominte munnil ninnu kathi vekkuvaaarunnu. Bahalam kettu Biji sir erangi. Njn chaadi seninte roomil keri. Njn bathroomil keri olichu ninnu. Pala housile oru major rule is dat u cant enter sumone else’s room , not even during break. Aa bathroomil nilkunathu tanne oru shikshayaayirunnu( vallapozhum vrithi aakunathil thettilaarunnu SENee). Sir sen-inodum gohulnodum samsaarchu ninnu. Ingottu varalle ingottu varalle ennu prarthichu njnum nilpaayi. Hehe.oduvil Sir keri povunundaayirunilla. He stayed for some more time. Ennittu avarodu kidanurangaan paranjittu pullikaaran keri kidannu. Ennitaanu njn erangiye aa bathroomil ninnu.
Den I went to my room. Palliyil poyavar palarum tiichu varunundaarunnu. Manjesh sirum vannu. Dat day he was liberal. Karangi nadanilla. Nere muriyil tanne poyyi. Vishnu came around. Njngal amodinte roominte munnil ninnu. Afsal, who is now at tvm Dental college, Richard, amod, arun raajendran ennivarum vishnuvum pinne njnum. Tammil wish okke cheythittu Vishnu made a suggestion. He said he wud talk of his old love story. his KV love. Every one was ready to hear. The girl he had crush on. Penkochinum ariyaamarunnu avannu crush undennu, but she was silent as her frnds were against it ennna gathiyil pokunna kadha. I cant say more about it I beliv…
But dat isnt the point. The point is dat he was telling the story as in a screenplay or script. Describing each incident ‘frame by frame’ as if it was a movie :D adding more to this, he wud describe each ‘frame’ minutely.” Avalum avalde frndsum ente ethire nadannu varuaa. Mathilinodu chernu aanu avaru varunne.njn enge vasathe mathilnodu chernaanu varunne….” Only he can do it. 10 minute thikayum munne tanne ithoru vazhikku povilla ennu manasilaaya richardum amodum thadi tappi. Afsalum arunum 20 minute kazhinju mungi. I was left alone with Vishnu. He talked on and on. Truthfully I wasn’t bored . We talked standing near the window near my room on the corridor in front of joel’s and sankaran’s rooms. Annu avan nidarsane pattyum okke paranjirunnu. About ernakulam . About KV life. Avante veetil chila kaaryangal . About the expectations he has to keep, Since his bro was an entrance topper. Love story paranju aa vazhikku kaadu keri pokum engottenkilum.ennittu tirichu varum.ennitu valla vetyasavum undo??? Pinnem pazhaya pallavi…annu avan 3 mani kazhiyum vare samsaarichu. And we didn’t even reach half of his lovestory!!!!(on the hostel day nite also he came to my room and finished of the story at 3:30.
Etra manikoor eduthu aa kadha parayaan ennalochikanam… hehe.Anyway I don’t know if he still fancies the same girl or if he moved on. Annu avan paranjathil koodutal onnum ennikariyilla…wudnt you feel like knowing wat happened next if u spent nearly 7 to 8 hours hearing it??? Wish he will tell me some day :D
Raavile enneekaan paadonnumillarunnu. But classil unarnirikaan nalla paadayirunnu. Xmas kazhinju vannapol muthal njn lunch kazhichu thudangiyirunathu kondu uchaykulla classinu oralpam urakom thoongiyirunnu. Achane vilichappo he said he had posted a letter. Dat he took d decision of restarting d habit of writing letters . I love dat letter. hmmm…nokkate athu post cheyaan patumo ennu…
Dat was my pala new year. Entirely different to the one I had in my life prior to pala... I was about some ideas. Some ppl. Not juz a first time on television thing… :D
Innale raatri njn venkiyude veetil aayirunnu. Editing fotos ,putting funny captions for our batch tour pics to show for our new year celebs kathiying with venki. Pani okke theernu kidannappo 3 mani kazhinju. Wanted to make this new year an unforgettable one. First time trying to co sumthing… Like the alarm idea was this new year celeb idea,juz that this was of a larger scale…Ofcourse this was unforgettable in a sense. Wont ever forget this…
So today am going to thank some people… The people who switched ON their alarm Clocks with me…and those who stood with me this year to try for the new year celebs for all the support n positiveness . Maybe both didn’t work the way we wud have liked it to, the way we wanted it to be. But whatever v had, v had…
I don’t regret having tried. Maybe I felt disappointed at some point. But then the world never has “ideal conditions”. Am happy I tried. Happy to know there are some who wud switch on their alarms with me when I ask … Thank you guys for the support.
Thanks a lot… a lot…
Have a happy new year…
Love
hari
Njn close frndsnte listil karuthunavare ettavum kodutal ‘salyam’ cheyunathu Paalayile karngal paranjaanu ennu ennikku thonnarundu. Avarku salyamaano ennu enikariyilla. Sometimes I do doubt if they actually get irritated wen I talk nonstop abt pala, a place they don’t know. Salyamaanenkilum out of courtesy parayaandirikunnathaanennu thonnum . I like hearing my frnds talk abt their lives. Very few do. Anyway I talk... wishing they do the same. njn parayunna athe freedm avarum edukum ennu vishvasichu kondu. But who are we to expect anything from anyone…
Whenever I talk of ‘How the year at pala was for me’ I praise it a lot. Aa appraisal was never an exaggerated one. Njn athine atra kaaryamaayi parayunnathu ente jeevithathil aaa oru varsam atra valiya oru kaaryam thanne aayirunathu kondaanu. Kooti parayunathalla. Randaamathoraalinnu athu manasilaavan onnukil ‘ayaal’um ‘njn’ aavanam. Allel enne atra nannayi ariyanam, manasilaavanam. Enthayalum valiaya sahityom pollipum thongalum onnumillathe parayaam. The memories till the moment I reached pala in one pan and the memories I got from one year at pala in d other pan of a scalesil vechu weigh cheytaal , the later one wud outweigh. Atra maatram undu oru varsam kondu ennikku kittyathellam. Dat was an intense year. Dense one.
Generally about new years before pala, they were all nearly the same. Puthu varsathine kshenikaan Dooradarsanodoppam kaathirikum. Cable vannappo it became watching premier shows of movies in strmovies n hbo. “I,robot” “Lord of the rings” muthalaaya padangal kaanunathaayirunnu athuvareyulla “new year”.
But the one at Pala was really different…
It wasn’t like any other night at palahouse, d new year’s eve. Raatri palliyil kurabaanakkum mattum pokaanullavarku povaam ennu manjesh sir paranjirunnu. Thottapurathalle Kizhathadiyoor palli.
Avarodoppam kurbanakku poyallo ennu alochichu. Pokaandiruanthinu pinnil oru rasakaramaaya kaaranam aanu undaayirunne. Onnalla.Randennam.
Njn valare kotichu oru plan ittirunnu. Palahousil mikka room-ilum ulla oru sadanam aanu Alarm clock. Njn mikkavarodum paranju “Krityam 12 mani aavumbol nammukelarkum Alarm ON aakaam, for one whole minute” ennu. Most agreed. Cheeti povaruthe ennu tanne aashichu. Many had agreed.( Palarum palliyil povumennu ariyaamarunnu). Allathavar ellarum ente oppam undaavumennu vishvasicu njn kaathirunnu new yearne. Muriyile Light okke off aakki. Vaatilkal ninnu piller palliyil pokuanthum nokki ninnathokke ormayundu. Cheruppum eduthittu koode poyaalo ennalochichu. But vendennu vechu. Alarm clock…hehe
Der was a second reason too. I wanted to wish venki new year at 12. He was utterly helping and supporting d whole year. Palahousil oru coin fone maatre ullu. Dat to in front of Biji sir’s room. Manjesh sir pallyil kurbanakku poyyi. Surjith sir maatre ullu. Bijisirnu 10:30nu uranganam. Raavile 4:30nu enneetu karangi nadakkum ennu kettitundu. I have never seen dat time at palahouse :D :D enthaayalum. Kootathil valiya salyam illatha aal surjith sir alle ,so permission tarumennu manasil vicharichu njn surjith sirne kaanaan poyyi. Chennu aavasyam paranju. He said “ ippo thanne(you) vilikaan samatichal baaki ullavarum permissionnum chodichu varum. Athu paada. Venda.” I pleaded. It was nearly 11:55 den. He didn’t permit me. Varsathil aadyam cheyaan aagrahicha kaaryam turn down cheythaal ningalkku enthu thonnum. The first wish of the year nadakilla enna idea itself didn’t feel dat good. Neraaya maargathil cheyaam ennu vicharicha njn mandanaayi. Aa aagraham talli kalayenda oru kaaryom illayirunnu sirnu. Ofcoz 10 per vilichottey ennu chodichennu tanne irikattey. ella divasom chodikunna kaaryamallalo. Njngal oru call newyearnu vilichal sirnu enthaa nashtam??? So ner vazhi upekschichu..sirmaarayalum atra ahamkaaram paadillalo ;)
Njn nere paaathu paathu coin fonil poyyi. Dialed venki’s number taking care not to make much noise as Biji sir wud wake up if I did. Fone edutatu venkiyude achan aayirunnu.
“Shankar uranguvaanu” ennu venkiyude achan paranju. But vilichunarthi uncle fone avanu koduthu.
“Aliyaa…”
“mmmm”
“happy new year”
“mmmm”
“Bodhamilleda? Urakathilaano”
“mmmmm”
Njn onnu chammi “enna naale vilikaam”
Again “mmmmm”
Paavam venki. Cherukane nattapaathirakku vilichu new year wish cheytha kondu oru mechom undaayilla. Bodham vende!!!! But Oru mechom undaayilla ennu paranjathu njn tirichedukunnu. I wont ever forget dat. Avanum marakilla. Edaykide paranju chirikaarundu tammil. Hehe.
Enthayaalum itrem kazhinjappo Biji sirnte roomil annakam kettu. njn fone vechitt odi. Muriyil chennu Alarm clock on aaki. Ormicha chillar ennodoppam alarm clock ittu. There was no synchrony . palarum palapol ittu. Chilar nerathey niruthi. Chillar taamasichu niruthi. Kurachu pere alarm vechullu. . Best part of it was that sum who went to the church kept the alrms set. niruthaan aal illandu athu adikunnekaranam sir erangi nokkuka undaayi.Urangi poyyi chillar. Marannu poyyi chilar. But it was ok. Ingane oru idea okke thonnumbo nammal manasil kaanunathum kelkunathum ellam are the ideal conditions. Manasil vicharichirunathu was hearing all those alarms together.When u compare wat u really get in life with wat u had in mind, wat u wished for, u will mostly feel disappointed. The few alarms dat accompanied mine, the small fraction of ppl, those are wat u actually have. Dissapointing it may seem, u cant have the world. But u can have a little of it. Sometimes u have to feel ok with it… innathe new year celebsnum ithe feeling aayirunnu. Leave it neway…
Ethu kazhinju njn pathiye erangi nadannu ground flooril palliyil pokaathavarude roomsil new year wish cheyaanirangi. Sen S Puthukulam and sajeesh’s roominte munnil ethi. It was near gohul’s room. Biji sir roomil ninnu erangiyaal face cheythu nilkunnathu SEN-inte roominte vaathililottavum. Dats d way usually. Njngal Sen-inte roominte munnil ninnu kathi vekkuvaaarunnu. Bahalam kettu Biji sir erangi. Njn chaadi seninte roomil keri. Njn bathroomil keri olichu ninnu. Pala housile oru major rule is dat u cant enter sumone else’s room , not even during break. Aa bathroomil nilkunathu tanne oru shikshayaayirunnu( vallapozhum vrithi aakunathil thettilaarunnu SENee). Sir sen-inodum gohulnodum samsaarchu ninnu. Ingottu varalle ingottu varalle ennu prarthichu njnum nilpaayi. Hehe.oduvil Sir keri povunundaayirunilla. He stayed for some more time. Ennittu avarodu kidanurangaan paranjittu pullikaaran keri kidannu. Ennitaanu njn erangiye aa bathroomil ninnu.
Den I went to my room. Palliyil poyavar palarum tiichu varunundaarunnu. Manjesh sirum vannu. Dat day he was liberal. Karangi nadanilla. Nere muriyil tanne poyyi. Vishnu came around. Njngal amodinte roominte munnil ninnu. Afsal, who is now at tvm Dental college, Richard, amod, arun raajendran ennivarum vishnuvum pinne njnum. Tammil wish okke cheythittu Vishnu made a suggestion. He said he wud talk of his old love story. his KV love. Every one was ready to hear. The girl he had crush on. Penkochinum ariyaamarunnu avannu crush undennu, but she was silent as her frnds were against it ennna gathiyil pokunna kadha. I cant say more about it I beliv…
But dat isnt the point. The point is dat he was telling the story as in a screenplay or script. Describing each incident ‘frame by frame’ as if it was a movie :D adding more to this, he wud describe each ‘frame’ minutely.” Avalum avalde frndsum ente ethire nadannu varuaa. Mathilinodu chernu aanu avaru varunne.njn enge vasathe mathilnodu chernaanu varunne….” Only he can do it. 10 minute thikayum munne tanne ithoru vazhikku povilla ennu manasilaaya richardum amodum thadi tappi. Afsalum arunum 20 minute kazhinju mungi. I was left alone with Vishnu. He talked on and on. Truthfully I wasn’t bored . We talked standing near the window near my room on the corridor in front of joel’s and sankaran’s rooms. Annu avan nidarsane pattyum okke paranjirunnu. About ernakulam . About KV life. Avante veetil chila kaaryangal . About the expectations he has to keep, Since his bro was an entrance topper. Love story paranju aa vazhikku kaadu keri pokum engottenkilum.ennittu tirichu varum.ennitu valla vetyasavum undo??? Pinnem pazhaya pallavi…annu avan 3 mani kazhiyum vare samsaarichu. And we didn’t even reach half of his lovestory!!!!(on the hostel day nite also he came to my room and finished of the story at 3:30.
Etra manikoor eduthu aa kadha parayaan ennalochikanam… hehe.Anyway I don’t know if he still fancies the same girl or if he moved on. Annu avan paranjathil koodutal onnum ennikariyilla…wudnt you feel like knowing wat happened next if u spent nearly 7 to 8 hours hearing it??? Wish he will tell me some day :D
Raavile enneekaan paadonnumillarunnu. But classil unarnirikaan nalla paadayirunnu. Xmas kazhinju vannapol muthal njn lunch kazhichu thudangiyirunathu kondu uchaykulla classinu oralpam urakom thoongiyirunnu. Achane vilichappo he said he had posted a letter. Dat he took d decision of restarting d habit of writing letters . I love dat letter. hmmm…nokkate athu post cheyaan patumo ennu…
Dat was my pala new year. Entirely different to the one I had in my life prior to pala... I was about some ideas. Some ppl. Not juz a first time on television thing… :D
Innale raatri njn venkiyude veetil aayirunnu. Editing fotos ,putting funny captions for our batch tour pics to show for our new year celebs kathiying with venki. Pani okke theernu kidannappo 3 mani kazhinju. Wanted to make this new year an unforgettable one. First time trying to co sumthing… Like the alarm idea was this new year celeb idea,juz that this was of a larger scale…Ofcourse this was unforgettable in a sense. Wont ever forget this…
So today am going to thank some people… The people who switched ON their alarm Clocks with me…and those who stood with me this year to try for the new year celebs for all the support n positiveness . Maybe both didn’t work the way we wud have liked it to, the way we wanted it to be. But whatever v had, v had…
I don’t regret having tried. Maybe I felt disappointed at some point. But then the world never has “ideal conditions”. Am happy I tried. Happy to know there are some who wud switch on their alarms with me when I ask … Thank you guys for the support.
Thanks a lot… a lot…
Have a happy new year…
Love
hari
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