Palahousile Oravadhi divasathile pathivukal...

Ini koodutal parayum munne Pala House time table parayaam…

Paranjarivum thettikumbo kittunna shikshakalum vechu manasilaaki edutha Paala housle samayanishtakal…

Lets consider a holiday at palahouse…

Morning 7:15 to 8 -“Break at Daybreak”

Athinte edayku Kizathadiyoor palliyil varunna "bhakthar"kulla Filteril poyyi vellam edukuka, kazhikuka enningane ulla panikal cheythu theerkaanam. Vellam illandu irikaan patuo!!!

Njn mikkavarum unarunnathu tanne 7:40nu aavum. Pinne angottu ellam vepralathilavum. So vellavum eduthittu Roysil ninnu kazhikem cheythu Palahousilekku odi chellunna vazhikku manjesh sir-ntem biji sir-ntem munnil (avaru roysil kazhikaanaayi irangumbo) chennu chaaadum. “mmm. Ennathaayirunnu itrem neram…” ennu manjesh sir chodikumbo eppozhumullathu pole vaa thurakaan pattathe ninnu povuka ennathu pathivaayirunnu. Chila divasam paropakaariyaayi vishnuvinteyo vere valordeyo kuppiyo okke nirachu kondu kodukaam ennu paranjitundaavum. Athu sirnodu parayilla. Athu paranjal pinne paropakaarathinum cheeta kelkanamallo. Pande lokarku paropakaarikale ishtamallalo. Enthaayalum enne vallathinum pidichal njn sadarana mindaathirikukayaa pathivu. Mughathe expression chillapol chammalinte aavum. Athu palapozhum enthu expression konduvaranam ennarinjoodathathu kondu “default setting” aayi varunnathaa…hehe

8 To 12- Study time (chirikenda…oralpamokke padikumaarunnu :D )

8 manikku roomil keriyaal pinne 12 vare irrunnu padikanam ennullathaanu kanakku. Ente reethi vechu njn 9 mani vare kurachu neram kidakkum (I know aa nerathu wardens don’t come patrolling. Njn aara mon!!!) Allel thunni kazhuvum. Pachaykku parayunnatu kondu aarum onnum vichaarikalley. Kazhuviya underwearukalde stock theerumbozhaanu athulpade baaki thunikalum kazhuvaanayi njn reference pokaathe Palahousil irikunnathu. Irunillel adutha divasam itondu povaan kaanilla.hehe. Njn referencente aal aayirunnu (reference ennu vecha brilliantil poyi avide registeril ezhuthi ittitu avide irunnu padikunna eerpaadu.) So njn raavile tanne Roysil ninnu RIN medichu thunnikal kazhuvi terracil kondu virikum. Terracil pokunna vazhikku kanunavare okke kathivechum “hala” paranjum paathu paathum pathuke pathukem aanu pokunne. Mukalail chennal avide ninnu study roomukalil irikunnavareyokke kai aaatti kaanikkal okke pathivaayirunnu. Mostly it wud be between 8 n 9.

On Sundays ee nerathu Kizhathadiyoor palliyile achannte aa chirattakal tammil uraykunna swarathilulla “ swargathil ninnaaagathamaaam…” kelkaam. Ee masterpiece kettu chirikaane neram kaanu njngalkokke.Kaaryam ethu ella azhchem kelkumaayirunenkilum it never lost its “athu” till the end. Chirichu pandaaramadangum. "Vadham" ennokke paranjal athaanu!!! Karthaavu veruthu kaaanum. Piano vaayikunna aalinte thaalam thettichu aa achan paadiyirunthu anukarikaan njn ulpedunna palahouse-kaar orupadundaayirunnu. Njn athu paadiyirunathu “Swargathil ninnagaathamaam sarkaar vakayil orappan nee…” ennanu.Chourus aayi padunavar nannayi padi kondu varumbozhaavum achante paatilekkulla nuzhanju kayattam. Brilliantil prayer aayi paadiyirunna pala nalla kraisteeya bhakthi gaanangalum pullikaaran paadi “anashwaram” aakiyitundu. "Aythunathamaam Swarlokathil sarvesanu sthuthi geetham...Bhoomiyilengum martyansu santhi ..." enningane pulli paadumbo Palahousile paavam kunjaadukalku polum santhi illandavumaarunnu. pinnaa angu mele irikana pullikaaaranu!!!!

Ithinte ellam koode Palliyil varunna penkochungale vaayinokkan mukalile nilakalalile payyanmaar aavasyathinu bahalam aayirikum. Njngade floorilum kaanumm but view kuravaa, kashtapaada… Groundfloor, chedikal view block cheyum. Arun ange atathu ninnu inge attam vare odi vannu vaayi nokkukayum avane follow cheythu ambu, moopan thudangiyavar odi vannirunathum okke ippazhum aalochikumbo comedy aayi thonnunnu.

Pinne patram(newspaper) parathum. Patram vaayikunna sheelam illatha aal aayathu kondu intrest thonnuna vallathum aavum thappuka. Literary review, young world , Friday review pinne Sunday magazine. Itrem patram’s aanu vaayikaan thidukam. Pinne padikkum kure neram. Chillapo Gohulte roomil chennu oru mandane pole vallathum paranju nilkum. Pokunna vazhikku ‘Richard n chaatan(akhil)’ ‘Thoufil n anas’ ‘Nikhil n ambu’ arun raajendran’s room ennidangalil attendance mark cheyyum. Nikhil.S-nte roominte aduthulla corridoril ninnu Nikhilntem Ambu-vintemaruntem koode ninnu chalu adikum,athinu thallu medikum angane angane…

Sunday aanel Richard 11 manikku palliyil pokumbo “oru mittayi,diarymilko vallom medichondu varumoda?” ennum chodichu chelum :D Avane medikaan pattathe vannal kothichirunnu kittathathine oru vaiklapti undaavum :P paavam njn…

12 to 1 - Lunch break

Roysil ninnu chorum, kothivannal meen curryum kazhikaan ulla samayam. Kaaryam roysile baaki ella currykalem kuttam parayunavara koode ullanthenkilum parayaam, avidathe meen curry ennikishtamaayirunnu. Ee breakinu pala-kallangalum paranju Junctionil poyyi Indian Coffee housilum Maharani-yilum lunch adichirunavaranum Pala bakersil bread muthal kandapatradikal vanganum pokunavar undaayirunnu. ATMil pokunnu ennavum Biji sirinodu parayuka. Pokunavanu nalla paniyaa. Ellarum avarku venda sadanagal parayum,bakery items muthal parcelukal vare. ennikum aa avastha vannitundu...

1 to 4 – Study time

veendum roomil. Ithaanu njn reference pokathe palahousil irunitulla divasangalil ettavum koodutal pravasyam "urangipoyyi" enna khora-kuttathinu pidikka pettitulla samayam. Nattuchayude choodirangum neram. Njn palahousil pakal nilkunnel uchaykku choru thinnum.lunch kazhikaathirunal chaya kudikaan pattanam.athinu vakupillanjittaaanu lunch kazhikunne. So niranja vayarumaayi NCERT biology eduthu tarayil vechu,kattilil kidannu vayikkaan shramam nadathi pathiye divaswapnangaliloode prayaanam nadathi aa vazhikku urakkathilekku thenni veezhum. Veeenaaal pinne unarunath DODO pakshi erangubozhaanu. Kodiyan Hosteldaykku "blunder news"il paranja pole room 'number 23'il koodundaaki taamasichu varunna DODO pakshi. Kuttikale kootil nilakku niruthaanayi tante muradicha swarathil “DO… DO… DO >tannodalle njn paranjathu….” enningane pokunna vachanangal uyarthunna palahouslente DODO pakshi, nammude BIJI sir… Bhagyam pole irikum pidikkkapedumo ellayo ennathu. Vere vallorem pidichal avide uyarunna DODODO kettu njn unarum. Vallorum muriyil njn urangunathu kandu avar undathiyaal njn rakshapedum. But pidikka pettalo!!! Purathirakki palahousente entranceinte avide adhava room number 23yude sidil chennu ninnu padikanam.Ninnu tanne padikanam ennavum order. Urakkam mootha divasangalil avide chennu gohulnte roominte sidil pokunna edathirikkum. Irikkallennu order kaanum, so sirnte muriyude kutti thurakunna sound kettal enneetu nadannu padikum pole bhaavikkum … Sirnu ethokke ariyaamaayirunnu ennu ariyaam…ennalum

4 to 4:30 - Tea break…aay …Bollywood n Pazhampori time

Roys canteenil poyyyi chayem pazhamporeem ullivadem neyyapom okke ullathanusarichu kazhikaanulla samayam. TVyil 9xm allel Mtv allel Paatukal ulla enthelum vekkum. Cricket ulla divasamaanel enne polle sports kaanatha aalinnu erangi povendi varum. Kizhathadiyoor palli vare pokum . Chumma ottaykku nadakaallo.

Roysile tv lunch breakinum teabreakinum valikuneram food adikaan varumbozhum ON aavum. Mikka pozhhum koode ulla aarelum chennu ON aakkum. Kazhichu kazhinjaalum samaay theerum vare avide irikum ellarum,wich of coz used to irritate “kozhuva chechi”. This was our window to new realeases. Ishtapetta paatukalum Delhi 6ntem vaaranam aayirathitem trailerukalum okke kaanan etra kotichaanu kaaathirunnirunne !!!!

4:30 to 7 – Study time

This time period was different for me at 2 different times. Pazhayathokke marannu thudangi ennu thonni thudangiya samayathu I used dis time to revise without fail. From January on ,that’s when I started eating lunch to put on weight for AFMC my dat time’s dream, I used to exercise during this time. 15 mins vare neelum vidahthil ore spotil ninnulla jogging,half crunches wich were increasing with each day, pushups and muriyile kasera kondu swayam undaakiya excercises , Nikhil joe jacobnte dump bells vechullava okke. Ennittu evidelum muscle vecho …athumilla :P Manjapitham pidipedum vare exercise correct aayi nadannu . Allenkil over aayi pokunundaayirunnu ennu parayunathilum thettilla (over ennu paranjathu lyk raatri padikaan irikumbo urakkam vannal pushups edukuka,crunches edukuka. Chumma irikumbo edukuka) Pinne kaaka kulichal kokkavilla ennu parayum pole exercise cheythathukondu undaayiruna ee narunthu body angane tanne ninnenkilum vallya pulli onnumaayilla...

Ee study timente avasanam powercut varunna samayanagal undaayirunnu . annokke nalla rasama.oruthantelo vallom mezhukuthiri kaanum. So chumma samayam kalayendi varumaarunnu. I mean chumma irikaamayirunnu.hehe…

Reference poyavar thirike varunna neramaavum 6:45 muthal angottu. Pinne njngade study roomil vechirikunna arrival departure mark cheyenda “bhavana”yude padamulla registeril oppukalum kalla oppkalum idunavarudey varavum avar kondu varunna brilliant canteenile fud pothikalum newsukalum kelkaan studyroomil njngal kuthi irikum. Biji sirnte vaka cheetem kittum athinu. But aareyaa ennu vecha pulikaaran parayuka!!!

7 to 7:30 – Dinner time

Raatri bhakshanam adikaan neramaayo ennariyunathu ettavum mukalile nilayil ninnu amal m paulntem Kodiyan athava podimontem baaki palarudeyum murikalde vaathilukal valichadaykunnathintem kutti idunathintem pootunathintem sabdam kelkunathodeyaanu. Athu kettu kazhinjal ororuthaayi erangi thudangum. Kuppiyum eduthu njnum eragum. Breakinu fone vilikuka ennathu paadulla kaarymaanu.Nalla queue kaanum. Neway Kizhathadiyoor palliyude filteril ajithntem baluvintem allenkil company kittuna arudeyenkilum koode okke poyyi kuppi niraye vellom nirachu varum roysil 9xm kandu chapaathiyum muttacurryo Meen Curryo meenchaaru maatramo enthelumokke kazhikaan. Ennitu break theerum munne veetil vilikukayo okke cheytittu muriyilekku madangum. Chillappo venkiyeyo sabariyeyo okke vilikum.

7:30 to….

Ithaanu palahousile ettavum koodutal patrolingum alambum paditom ellam nadakunna samayam. 1st floor study roomil alambinte pooramaayirikum.BUt avidathe alambine patti ennikatra ariyilla ketto. Purame ninnu kanditundu. Ente Flooril atra valiya alambanmaaronnumillarunnu. Alambumaarunnu. Njn alambu ishtapedunvar undel poyyirunnu alambumaarunnu Ajithnte flooril entha sambhavichirunne ennathine patti oru separate article ezhuthi tarumo ennu ente oru request undu. Malayalathil ninte studyroomile vaikuneram 7:30kku shehsamulla alambu or general vivaranam. I know u were the signal boy to inform if manjesh sir got out of his room. nee tanne paranja mathi

Nerathey paranja pole 10:30 vare urangaan paadilallo. Ennalum sir erangumbo unarthaan paranjittu kidakkum chila divasam. Nikhil joe jacobne pidichu avan bodhamillandu ninnu pirupirutha oru divasam chirikaaamo aa avastha kandittu ennu samsayichu ninnu poyyitundu. Cherukante vaathilil njn kure kotti sir varum munne. Pootha urakathil enna kelkaanaa!!! sir kottiyappo unarnu. Bodham maatram illarunnu :D

Ee samayathulla paripaadikal varies with days.

On Tuesdays we used to have “meeting”. Palahousile jeevitatil oru aashvaaasam. Some tuesdays stand out. I used to wait for Tuesdays den. Thottu munne mondayil kazhinja weekly testnte rank vaayana n remarks by manjesh sir okke kazhinjal pinne paatum chillapo mimicryum okke kaanum.njnum paadiyitundu . Guest aayi stephen sir chillappo varum. Ajithum VIshnuvum Richardum Renjuvum vere orupaaadu perum paadiyirunnu paadiyirunnu. Arun Rajendrante “palavattam kaathu ninnu njn” n baaluvinte "action song" okke orma varunnu. Meeting kazhinju pirinjal manjesh sir kure neram kazhinju varum report cards sign cheyaan.

Baaki divasangalil this was mostly study time. Pinne njn ee samayathu padikaan pattathe vannal kathezhuthukayo study roomil poyyirikukayo,desp aanel palahouse entrancinte avide poyyi angottum ingottum nadakukayo skool magazine eduthu vaayikukayo autografbook vaayikukayo okke cheyum…parayaam palapozhaayi. Ellam koodi ippo paranja enganna!!! :D

Beyond 10:30...

In my room it wud be dark. Fan on aayirikilla . current bill ente achan vannadaykumo!!!! Kattilil njn kaanum. Divaswapnams n from der all the way to sleep. 10:30nu vendi kaathirikukayaavum kidaakaan. Hehe... initially baaki palarum cheyunathum kandu raatri kuthi irikum padikaanennum parnaju. Pinne manasilaayi athente reethiyalla ennu. Avasaanam urakkaksheenam kaaranam adutha divasam pakalum padikaan pattilla adutha divasam urakkam varum nerathey. Its with this realization that I started using my daytime well for study….

Athava urangiyillel u mite notice a dark outline walking with a red empty bucket, sneaking up the stairs as if he is going to spread the clothes he washed in the terrace.POkunna vazhikku pidikapettal thuni virikaan poyathaa ennu parayaana ee bucket. Ajithne terracil vilichu varuthiyiitu irrunnu kathi vekkum raatri muzhuvan. Terracil irrunnu 12^th vare ulla jeevitha kadhakal, Ms.Xnu AFMCyil chennittu ezhuthumennu paranja kathu, abt all my frnds at tvm, veetile presnams, annu vaayinokkiya penkochungale patti(personal aayi avare patti thonunnathu. wich never went on to paradhoosanam level. aareyokke kaanan kollam ennu thonni n all. mikkavardem perukal ariyillarunnu.dat was a drawback? I don’t think so. V never lukd for biodatas. Ours was “considerate vaayinottam” since we both have sisters n v know wat a brother feels wen a guy stares at his is in sum absurd way or cracks a comment at her or make her uncomfortable by staring. So njngal valya vayinokkikal aayirunenkilum orikalum njngal nokkiyirunathu avar ariyaatha reethikku aayirunnu. We never did it to show off.we did it for vaayinottam.Say, nalla vayinokkikal nt famous ones coz we did it for the spirit of it rther than for “show”. Dat according to me is successful art of vaayinottam. Vaayinokkuvaaaanennu aarkum manasilaavandu vaayinokunathalle sherikum athinte vijayam tanne!!! Veruthey ellarem ariyichond vaayinokkan ethu pottanum pattum.( Like saying u can be a mass murderer easily.but its hard to be a silent assassin in Hitman style) Anyway angane ulla vayinokkiakal pempillerkokke ariyaamayirunnu. Ennem ajithnem polulavare aarkum ariyathumilla. We were secret agent like vayinokkis ennu paranju aashvasikaam. Oru penninum arinjoodatha vaayinokkikal. Pinne njngale okke aaru kaananaa. Allelum iruttine kaanan pattilalo…

Ithu randum allel kathezhutaano, padikukayo, autograph bukum vaayichu kidakukayo okkeyaavum…

Ithippo oru avadhi divasam pala housil ninnal sambahvikunna kaaraymalle. Varunudu avadhi allatha oru general divasathine patti aduthu tanne …hehe :D

Bore aavunundo? Sahikaaam, allel nerittu parayaam. Donno if anyone is reading ne of this crap. But neway am going to keep writing. Adutha article aayo aayoo ennu chodikunna tutukuttikku vendi…

:D

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hari

Veetil ninnu doore athava Urakamillatha oru ratri…

Ee randennathil ethaanu peraayi edendathennu ariyilla. So randum kidakatte ennu vechu

Enne aduthariyaavunavarkku ariyaam, njn “veetil ninnu maari ninnu padikanam” “doore ninnu padikanam” ennokke aagraham paranjirunna oraalaanu( ippozhum agrahathinu maatamonnumila.but colllege aduthaayi poyyi. athukondu tanne hostelil nilkaan thonnunilla). Veedinodu verupundenalla ketto. Doore ninnappol avar sneham kaanichirunnu. Aduthullappo atrem intensityil onnum thoniyitilla. Pinne veetil oralpam spoon feeding koodi pokunennu pandu thonnumaarunnu. Enniku swayam cheyaavuna kaaryams simple aaki taraaanulla shramam. Ente freedo(m)thil kai kadathunennum thonnum, wen they take dicisions without my consent. Ente samayathinu valiya vila kalpikilla lyk dey would make me wait till they are free as if i had nothing better to do( do i?). avar free avaaravumbo enne vilikunahtalle nallathu enna chodyathinu uttaram kittarilla. Always presumes i dont have anything to do when i say 2mrw is a holiday. Avaru kandataa lokam,nammudethu lokamalla, avarkundaayirunathaa bandhangal nammudethonnum bandhangalalla, ennaaa mattum bhavavum hehe.

Above all I always wanted to be independent. Athukondu koodi aanu AFMC ennum vilichu nadanirunne. Doore padikaam, fees onnumilla. Independent.

Palayil pokunenu munneyum skoolil padichirunna kaalathum ammayude vaayil ninnu orupaadu kettitulla vaakukalaanu “njn ividillel evan enganaano aavo enneetu skoolil povuka?” At times I used to feel dat dis dialogue questioned thier view of my self sufficiency. Avarillathe ennikku manage cheyaan pattilla ennoru thonnal avarkullathu pole, some sort of inconfidence dat i cant do a thing right, out of over-concern . Natural for any parent to have dat! I do have the habit of getting overconcerned abt my close frnds. Hehe. So I know.

Anyway amma ippo athu parayaarilla. Palayil oru varsam ninnappol enne vilichunarthaan avide amma illayirunnu. Ente thuni kazhuvaano oro kunju kaaryathinum ente pirake nadakaano irunnu padikkeda irrunnu padikeda ennu paryaano aarum illayirunnu. I did it for myself rather dan their compulsions. Dat is my idea of independence. Enne irrritate cheyum pole pirake paranju ndanal njn rebellious aavum.

At pala I cud manage my time. Doore aayondu veetukaarkum snehakoodutal undennu feel cheyum. Avar ennum vilichu vishesham chodikum. For the first time I came out from under the wings of my parents. Adyamaayi trainil ottaykku pokunathu polum palayil pokumbozhaanu. .i saw myself doing things for myself. I enjoyed all of it. Every bit of it…

Veetil tirichettumbol njn veendum elaya kuttyaaa. Njn veetil silent aanennu paranjal chillarku vishvasikaan paadu thonniyekkam. Anyway angane aanu. Abhiprayangal kunjaayathu kondu chodikaathe thudangiyathaavam pinnedu abhiprayangalum aavasyangalum unnayikaan enniku thonnumaayirunilla. veetil samsaarikaanum. Opposite charecter of my sis. chechi ellam veetil parayum.onnu vidathe. Entelum venamenkil achanodu chechi chodikunna oru cute diaouge undu. kelkaan cute. "achante kayyi paisa undoo? ellenkil venda" hehe

Abhiprayangalum okke veetil thurannu parayaarillayirunnu. Ippo cherutaayitokke parayaarundu. Achane kochile pedi aayirunnnu. Achan oru kidilamaa. Company okkeyaa, but onnu tarapichu nokkiyal tanne njn pedikumaarunnu. So achan enthu paranjaalum anusarikumaarunnu, oralpam irritated aayalum avasaanam achan parayunnathaavum cheyuka. Pala kaaryangalilum ente nattelinte bala kuravinte kaaranam veetil cheyendi irunapozhonnum sabdam uyarthaathe thaazhnu koduthaathennu njn vishvasikunnu. ippozhum Oridathum chennu ninnu swantam abhiprayam uracha swarathil parayaan intiative edukaan madi aanu(parayenda idathu parayunundu ennu tanneya ente vishvasam, still). His suggestions, dey are commands. Athu ente presnamaanu. Athu kondu thane veetil I used to feel suppressed(self suppressed).ippo atrem illa. Pala changed me a lot, though am still the same old person.

Orupaadu per veetil ninnu collegil poyyivaranam ennu parayunnu. Njn nere tirichu Veetil ninnu doore ninnu padiakan ennu aagraham parayunnu. Ennal palayil vechu onnu randu pravasyam “ veetil aayirunenkil” ennu aalochichu poya avasarangal undu. Athil onnannu njn parayaan pokunnathu.

Ethandu Palayile samayam kazhiyaaravunna samayam. All India Medical prelims examinu viralil ennavunna atra divasame ullu. Pala housil ellam koodi 6 per avasheshikunnu. Baaki ullavar manjapitham or jaundice or say,hepatitis vannitto athu varumo enna pedi kondo pala housil ninnu palaaayanam cheythirunnu. Manjapitha kadhakal pinnorikal parayaam. Enthayalum Avasaanam manjapitham pidipedaathe avide undaayirunna 6 perril oraalaayirunnu njn. Thoufilum appo hostelil undu. Taazhathe flooril njngale baaki ullu. Ajith dengue-vum manjapithavumaayi Hospitalil aayi. Palahouse vijanam. Nisabdatha. Angane ulla oru divasam. May maasathilalle all India nadanathu? Enkil april avasaanamaanu ethu. Enniku reference irrikke ksheenam thonni. Nalla ksheenam. Ignored it for den. Vaikuneram aayappo cheruthaayi temperature koodi. Kaiyum kaalum tannuthu. Ellathinetem koode talavedanayum. Sadarana ennikku pani vannalum oru full divasam nilkilaarunu annookke ( med collegil keriya shesham orikal divasangal neendu ninna orenam vannappo aa ahangaaram maari kitti) So ignored it. Raatri kuliraan thudangi. Talavedayum paniyude vaka ksheenom koodi undallo. Manjesh sirne kandu nerathey kidanottey ennu chodichu. Sir samatichu. Njn kayyil ulla oru paracetamol kazhichitt kidannu. Tannuthu viraykunundaayirunnu. But njn urangi.

Natta paatiraykku unarnnu. Thalavedana kalasalaaayi tanne undu. Migraine aayirunirikanam. Enniku ettavum thaangatha kaaryangalil onnanu thalavedana. Dehathu etra vedana undelum njn sahichu nadakum. But talavedana enniku thaangaarilla.(ee edaykku meesamadhavnil kochin hanifayudethu pole pedali aayapozhum vedana sahichilla ketto!!! kazhuthu tirikaathe nadakuvaayirunnu)

Palayile raatriyille tannupinte koode ente paniyude vakayulla virayalum koodi. Bedsheet tanneyaanu njn putachirunne. Like a pupa? Bedsheet kondu chuttum.so Puthaykaan vere thuniyum edukenda bedsheetnte purpose aavem cheyum. Orotta sheetil kaaryam kazhiyum. So tannuthu virachu putachu moodi talavedanayumaayittu kidannu. Talavedanayude bhaagamaayitaavanam, shardikanam ennoru feelingum undaayirunnu. Kidakumbo shardil varunnu ennu thonni ezhunelkum. Bathroom vare chelumbo onnum varilla. Vibhala shramangal nadathum onnu shardikaan. Shardichal talavedana kurayumennoru vishvaasamundallo. Aake vishamichu poyyi. Tannukkunnu,shardikaan varunnu. Chuttumulla murikalail aarumilla. Kayyile avasaana paracetamol aanu nerathey thinnathu. Kure pravasyam eneetitaanelum avasaanm njn oru shardichal oppicheduthu. Shardichappo maybe mentally oru aashvaasamundaarunnu, lyk talavedana ini kurayumallo enna mattil. Kidanittum talavedana kurayunilla. Koodiyathe ullu. Tannuthu viraykann thudangi. Appo alochichupoyyi “ veetil aayirunel ammaye vilichu oru kattan ittu kudikaamaayirunnu”

Pakshe veetil ninnu doore aayi poyille… raavile 4:30 vare urakkamillathe vedanichu kidannu. Athinu shesham mayangi…Adutha divasathe kaaryam manjapitha kadhakailil parayaam.

Ethu pole thala vedana vannu raatri ezhunettitulla naalo ancho raatrikal undu. Athil tanne 3 ennamenkilum shardichitundu. Appozhellam alochichitundu njn veetil aayirunel ennu. Talavedana vannal purathirangi nokkum ethelum muriyil vettamundo ennu. Paracetamolnaa. Ellarum urangiyitundaavum.kaaranam eneekunathellam oru 3 manikkokeyaa. So aarem vilikaathe angane urangaandukidakkum.

Irony of all of these is that palayil ninnu veetilekku vanna sheshavum talavedanakal vannitundu. Nattaapaathitrayku ezhunettu ithu pole shardichitundu. Paracetamol thappiyittum kittatirunna chila raatrikal undu. Annonnum njn aarem vilichunarthaan poyyilla. Urakathil kidakunavare enganeyaa vilichunarthuka enna aalochana. Pathukke vilikkum onnu randu praavasyam. Avar urakamallenkil varatte enna mattil…

Enne aarelum oru sahaayathinu nattapaatiraykku vilichalum njn odichellum. Avar nattapaatirakku vilikaathirunnal vilichoodarunno ennu chodikkum. Enthelum sahaayam venel or entelum undel vilichal mathi, madikaruthu ennu parayum. Palapozhum chillar aa freedom edukunillalo ennnalochikumbo “feel cheyum”. But look at the other side of it. Swantam veetil polum aarem disturb cheyanda ennu vicharikunna aalaa ethokke parayunne ennalochikumbo ennikku tanne oru chammal…alla, chammal alla. I donno the rite word for it. Oru athu thonnum. Baaki ullavare sahayikkan nadakkum. But avarodu sahaayam chodikaan valiya madiyaa. Abhimaani??? Aay. Ataavilla. Atho aano???!!!

Ennikariyilla.

Pandu "The promise" enna kadhayil njn tanne ezhuthiyundu “All great mistakes happen when one tries not to disturb others”.

Enthelum undel parayaan madikallennu parayunna njn tanne oru sahayam chodikaan valare madikunnu… I always justify it by saying that am saving it for some time else. Bhaviyil orikal atyavasyam varumbo chodikaam ennu vechu maati vekunathaa. I beliv or I want to beliv its so.

Ini oru urakamillathaa raatri varumbo swantam ammaye vilichunartaan madikaruthennundu. Edukenda freedom edukanam ennundu. Pattumaayirikum. Salyam aavaatirikaan shramikunathu oralpam over aayi povunnu ennoru thonnal. Hehe.

Neway veetil ninnu doore aayapozhum veetil tanne undaayirunapozhum njn ennikaayi srishticha avasthakal onnayirunnu ennu ippo thonnunu. Evide aayalum nammal tanneyaa nammukku enthaa kittuka ennathu nishchayikukaa. Freedom edukaan ennikulla inhibition ennenkilum maarumaayirikum.

Hmmm … bye for now. Achanum ammem kanji eduthu vechu vilikunnu. Njn kanji okke kudikatte

Take care guys

love

hari

Palahouse-ile aadya divasangale patti oru kathu….

Aliyaa,

Lavide enna nadakunne ennu ennikarinjooda.evide thane entha nadakunne ennu daivathinu maatre ariyoo.

Hostelukalil vacancy illatirunath kondu oru veetilotaanallo njn poyathu. Avidam ottum strict allayirunnu. Venel padicho. Eppo veno kidannurangikko enna mattu.koodathe avide muzhauvan enggneering pilleraa. Raatri oru samasyam kazhinja kuzhapamillatha bahalom samsaarom okke kaanum. Ingane okke irikumubozha “palai house” enna jailne kurich kettathu.

“vaikuneram 7 muthal 745 vareyulla break kazhinjal palahousil 10;30 vare murikullil erunno study roomil ironno padichonam.kattililottu aa neram onnu nokkaan polum paadila. Wardenmaar randu per. Manjesh abd biji sir. Current bill nammal tanne adaykanam. Muri thuranitt maatre padikaavu. Nerathey kidanal nalla their kittum.”

Etrayum avide cell number 71il kidakunna oru payyante vaayi ninnu ketathaa. Swayam shikshikaan erangithiricha ennikku ithil param enthuvenam. Njn brilliantinte board of directorsne okka kandu palahouseil oru roominu apekshichu oraazhchathe kaathiripinu sesham ennikk kaaragrahathil oru cell kitti. Njn tala tirinja janmama ennu veendum thonni povunnu. Akathullavar purathu chaadan nokkuna oru sthalathottu chodichu vaangipokunavan…vere enthaavanaa!!!!

Palahouse is not dat bad. Athu jail aayi thonunath palarum veetil ninnu aadyamaayitaanu maari nilkunnathu. Kure adhikam per saniyaazhcha raavileyo velliyaazhcha vaikuneramo aavumbol permission vaangi veetil povum. Njn augustile varunullu .avide vannittu titichu varumbo vallathe thonnum. Evide nalla tannupaaa….mazhayum…sthalam ishtapettu. Ivideyum goal adikunathil panjamonnumilla.

Palahousil ethiyathinte moonam divasam. Rulesne patti padichu varunne ullu. 10:30 aayal kidakaam ennariyaam. 10:30 aayapol muri pooti kidannu.urakkam vanilla. Light on aaki . dinesh bio eduthu Monday testnulla sadanangal padichond kidannu. Kazhinjappol aayirikum, mayangi poyyi. Light off cheyan marannu poyyi. Warden 1145 kazhinju circuit adikaan erangi. Ente muriyil light kandappo vannu kotti. Pootha urakkathil njn enna kelkaanaa!!!

10 minute neram kottiyenna parnaju kettathu. Appozha enniku pakuthi bodam vane!!! Njn chennu vaatil thurannu.

“enthu cheyuvaarunedo?”

“padikuvaarunnu”

“ njn 10 minutaayi ninnu kottunnu”

“Padichond kidakkuvaarunnu. Urangi poyenna thonnune.”

1^st time aayondu valya presnamonnumillarnu. Veruthe vittu. Kattilil kidannu melal vaayikaruthu.vaayikumbo vaatil thuranittu vaayikanam ennokke paranju enna ente paathi bodhathil ninnu udaledutha aa orma parayunnathu… :D

Sir poyyi. Njn urangi. Adutha divasam raavile ennikarinjoodathavar palarum kaanumbol chirikunnu. “12-Ayille hari alle?”ennu chodikunnu

“ 12-a puthutaayi vanna hari ippo urakathil ninnum vilichunarthiyappo entho pichum peyumokke paranju” ennu warden pinne annu raatri pokkayavarodokke paranjatre

I liked dat dialogue “Urangi poyenna thonnune” :D

Baaki ellarkum enthokke vishesham ……..myletters wont be frequent.ippo palahousil break time aanu

From jail with love

Hari

This was the letter I wrote to sabari. From palahouse sum days after I reached palahouse. Ippo palahousene patti thonnunathu vechu describe cheythal it wont say wat I thot in the beginning ennu thonnniyathu kondu aanu letter ittathu. Personal aayi paranjthine “…” ittu maati.

That’s that…

Love

hari

Auz ikkayude kadha..

Pala housilekkulla ticket adichu kittya shesham 2 divasame Vandaanathu veetil nilkaan pattiyullu. Athuvare avrude samsaarangalilum charchakalilum onnum pankedukaathe oru “pseudo buji”ye pole verum paditavum paditavum verum paditavumaayi avarde munniloode nadanna njn avasaana 2 raatrikalail avarde samsaarangalil koodi. Enne appozhe Auz ikkayum Kevin chetanum “sooranadu”um ellarum “Doctor” ennaanu vilichirunathu.Munpe ezhuthiya entrancil 5900 rankum athinte koode complete time paditavum ellathintem appurathu randu doctormaarde putran ennathu kondum okkeyaavanam angane vilichirunathu.Most things are like that na, orotta kaaranam kondaavilla perukal veezhuka.Vilikunna ellarkum ee perukal engane veenu ennu ariyanam ennu nirbandhavum illa.Aaro vilichu thudangi.athu kondu avarum vilikanu… But as ever aa perum ninnillla…

Auz ikkayaanu annu raatri avide samsaaram thudangiyathu. Sareera prakrithavum samsaara reethiyum ellam KNG sirne pole thanne.Enna oralpam muslim-north kerlaite aalkaar samsaarikum poleyula samsaaram. Pullikaarana KNGye patti aadyamaaayi ennodu parayunne. KNGyude wits oralpam adults only anenkilum elarkum sirne bhayankara mathipaa.Sir kidilamaa.ingane okke paranjappo I cudnt help wondering immathiri okke samsaarikunna manushayane enganeyaa ellarum ishtamaa ennu parayunne.Classil tholi urinju pokum vidhathil aakum ennu parayuna vidhathil aakunna sirne ellarkum ishtamenno!!! But now I know why…He is a “Morrie”.

Athokke potte.Mikka samsaarams were abt the cruelities of a palahouse warden named Thomas sir(thomaachan). Avide purathu raatri muzhuvan muttu kuthi niruthicha kathayum, ethan taamasichathinu hostelil keran anuvadikaathahthum angane angane. Swayam shikshikaan theerumaanichathu kooduthalaayi poyo ennu vare njn samsaayichu poyyi.

Pokunathinte thale divasam Auz ikka oru kadha paranju. Auz ikkede kadha njn parnajal enganaa sheyaavkaa!!! Appo pinne cheyaavunna oru kaaryam I will say it like he says …

“Njn SFIde oru sammelnam kazhinju varuvaa.Vaikuneram oru 7 aayikaanum.Ippazhathe pole irutundu.Lift kittumaarunnu.pashengil main roadilaalle irakki vidoo.Pinnem nadakande 1 kilometrekoode veetil ethanenglu.

Bus aanel nere veetinu munne pokum.athond njn Bus stopil poyyi ninnu.Bus kitti.Akath keri munnil 3 peririkanna randu moonu seat ozhinju kidanathil orenathilangu irunnu. Kore yaatra cheythalle vanne raavile. Thalarnirikuvaarunnondu njn irunnurangi. Edaykkunrnappo ente seatil oru sthree oru kochnem kond irikanundaarunnu. Oru 3 vayasu kaanum kochinu. Njn kure nerom koodi irunnu urakkam thoongi.edaykku veednum njetti onarnappo avaru enneetu ponu.Kochu avide thane irikanu.Avaru erangi.Bus eduthu.Njn antham vittirikuvaa.Njn urakke vilichu kochine edukanille ennu. Njn kochinem edutondu odi.Conductorntaduthu niruthaan parnaju.Apazhum avaru nadannu pone kaanaaam. Njn kochinem eduthondu avarde pirake odi.avaru oru autoyil keri vittu.Pirake njum oru auto pidichu poyyi.kure poyyi.avasaaanam avaru oru junctionil niruthi erangi. Njnum erangi kochinem kondu avadre aduthu chennu choodaayi.Kochine busil ittitu povaanum maatram kanni chorayille pengale ningalku ennokke urakke chodichu. Junctionalle! Aalu koodi…Avaru parnaju kure neramaayi njn avarde pirakke ee kochinem kond nadannu salyam cheyem thalayi ketti vekkanennum parnaju shalyam cheyuvaa ennnum. Avarde image thakarakaanennum okke!!!

Manasale nirroovicha vallomaano avaru parayeney!!! Njn enthokke parnajittum aarum vidanillaAvaru avide vendapetta aaro aayirunnu thonannnu.nee police stationil chennu baaki parnajaaa mathinnaayi avaru.pidichu valichondu poyyi avaru.Aadyamaayitonnumalla police sation keraney. SFI samaravumaayittu keriyerangeetundu 3 pravsyam.Pakshe naalamathu erumbo police station station allathaavumo. Njn kenji parnjau nokki njn satyamaa parayanathennu

.”athu avide chennu parayedaa” ennum parnajondu pidichondu poyyi. Avarum vannu. Police stationil SI choodanaarunnu. Pullikaarathi avidokke ellarkum ariyaavunna aalarunu. Njn thettukkaraanaa enna mattilaa ellarum nokkaney.njn nalla pedichu poyyi.Sherikum pedichu poyyi.Thettu vallom cheytho? illa!enna athaaru kelkanu!!!

“evdunaada kochine kittye ninnakku?”

Njn paranju “satyamaayum evaru busil..”

“chee niruthedaa @#%$#$%$.naanom maanomaayitu jeevikanavarde maanam kalayan nokkunno”

Ennikaake pediyaayi.njn karachilnte vakkil ethi.Kanokeyangu niranju. “Ayyo sir” ennokke vilichu karachilum viliyumaayi.

“vayasu 18 aayilla atinu munneyaa avante numberkal !!! Phone eduth veetile number njnkedaaa”

“sarr,vaapaayaanu satyam njn kallamonnumalla parenathu!!!” njn karanjondu vilichu paranju nokki.Ente changidikannathu ennikale kelaavu!!! Entalla!!!

“parnaja kekkoola alledaa nee” ennum parnajondu SI vannu ente kuthinu pidichu nalla oru thozhi thannu…

Auz ikka itrem paranjittu onnu niruthi swasam vittu.Athuvare vidunillarunnu ennalla.Oru deerkaha swaasam. Njngalokke antham vittirikuvaa. SFIde samaram.Athil konda adikal.etokke kettitundu chettan paranju. Ithu kettappo njngal aake njetti. Police kesu vallom aaya jeevitakaalam muzhuvanum paniyalle!

Suspense thaangathe njn chodichu “ennittu kesu vallomaayaa ikka?”

Ikka veendum panraju thudangi.njn chevi koorpichirunnu. Atra suspensilaalle nirutheerikane. Case onumaavathe rekshapedum avasaanam.Athu njn urapichu. Ellel pinne pullli kaaran engane Repeat cheyanum ippo repeat cheyanum okke vannnu!

“ SI Kuthinu pidichu nalla thozi tannathu matram ormayundu.pinne kore neram kazhinu orma vanappo .njn tharayi kedakkuvaaarunu”

“Ennitu?”

“Ennitentharu!!! Umma kaapi kondu tannu. Njn eduthu kudichu!!!!”

Pattiya ammili manasilaayathapozhaa. He made an ass out of me and all others except Kevin chettan who was grinnng.

Sumtimes I enjoy being that ass. Ippozhum chillar ingane ulla kathakal parayumbo njn kettondirikum.Ariyaamaayirikum.Avasaanm enne ass aakanulla paripaadiyaa ennu. Ennalum avarde oru santhoshathinu njn angu ass aayi kodukum. Annorikkal totally ass ayyi poyyi ariyaathe.Auz ikkede kadhayude saaraamsham ulkondukondu iniyorikalum aarudeyum ingane ulla kadhakal kettu ass avathirikaam ennu vicharichaa nammale ass akki nammade jeevitham thanne jolly aakkunavare ass aakkunathiloode nammal nammale thanne ass aakukayalle ennu thonni pokunnu...

hehe

love

hari

Aadya aazcha... part -2

Sunday ravile 7:15nulla Sabari expressil pokaam ennu Kesavane vilichappo paranju.Aa yaatra ippazhum ormayundu.Kesavan valare adhikam desp aarunnu. Avanu veetil ninnu maari nilkunnathil nalla vishamam undaayirunnu.Innu avanaanallo kootathil veetil ninnu ettavum doore nilkunathu,in AIIMS. Annu trainilvechu avante kannokke oralpam niranjitundaayirunnu enna ente orma.Thirichu palayilottu varanam ennu avanu ottum thane illayirunu.Palahouse enna karagrahavum Roys canteenile non-veg aaya vegetable curryum or say insect curry okke alle. Kesavanu athu thonniyathil oru thettumilla :D

Angane thirichetthi ente ‘vandaanathu’ veetil.Appozhekkum Arun adhava ‘Sooranaadu’rangaprevesham nadathiyirunnu .Oru paavathaan.Avanu armyil cheranam ennayirunnu. Avante achanum ex-military aayirunnu. But veetukaar nirbandhichittu vannathaanenkilum aathmaarthamaayi padikaan shramichirunna payyan.Ineem chiller varaanundu ennum parayunnundaarunnu. Adutha divasam Jishnu from Trivandrum vannu. Avanu shesham Hijosh vannu.Pinne engineering repeateraayi.oraal koodi vannu. Per ormayilla.

Njn parnajallo, wat was in my mind was to punish myself. I wanted to stay a loner. Now wen all these engineering ppl came into the vandaanath,the house became a bit jolly. Raatri avarde paditam kazhinjal avaru kure neram kathi vekkalum pala kaaryangale patti charchayum okkeyaayi artha raatri vare chillapol kaanum ee samsaaram. I never got involved in any of those talks then. Ethokke kaaranam njn brillaintinte main hostelukalil ozhivundo ennu anweshanam thudangi avar ariyaaathe. Kesavanodu Palahousene pattiyum,Robinodu kurumundelne pattiyum okke chodikaan thudangi. Appozhe pala houseil enniku nottamundaarnnu. Ennikku vendathu oru kaaragrahamaarunallo. Offficile Mars Mathew sirne kandu kaaryam paranju.Sir Board of directorsil oraalinodu parayaan paranju.Kandu.Paranju.Ennodu board marks and previous rank chodichu. ISC sylabuste vila annu njn aadymaayi arinju.Sir parnaju ini ozivundel ariyikaam ennu.

Chandralal sirnte current electricity appozhaanu thudangiaythu.Aadya classil tanne sir classile ellarem kayyil eduthu. Mohanlalum sirum tammilulla samyangal. Ivide padipikkan vannathil pinne veedu kandittu kaalam kure aayathukondu kazhnja pravasyam veetil chennappo swantham amma “aaraa?” ennu chodichennum angane angane.

Skoolil padikmbol current electricity onnumarinjoodarunna enniku sir parayunnathaayirunnu basics.Tammil confuse cheyan vere shortcuts illa,vere formulakal onnum ariyathumilla.Resistances solve cheyan thudangiappo athu cheyunna ente reethiyum speedum kandittu kesavan parayumaarunnu enniku kuruttubudhiyaanu ennu. Avan athu parayumbo njn cheruthaayi onnu pongumaaarunnu ennu parayunnathil thettonumilla ;)

Pinne roshni miss.KNG sirnte ponnomana putri.Sirne poletanne chalu adikaanulla shramathil ennenkilum avar vijayikumaayirikkum. Pakshe annu vijayichirunilla.Pempiller chirikkumaarunnu. Aanpilleril chillar paranjirunathu pempillerum aaki chirikanatha ennaa.chiillar parayunnathu pempiller engane ulla witukalkum chirikum enna :D donno…

.Avarde oru classil Jerin John Philip(JJP)kaazhchayil valare distracted aayi irikunnathu shradihu avane Miss pidichu .ennitu avarentha paranje ennu chodichu.Avan mani maniyaayi paranju ellam.Madam got impressed.chammi ennu parayunnathinte continuation aanu ee impressed .hehe. Perum okke chodichu.Jerine annanu nottam ittathu.

Annum jerinum Ron Jacobum okke orumichu tanneyaanu irunirunathu. Pirakile benchukalail nammude yahya, aasaan and Joe undaavum.Njn appozhokke aadya benchil aanu irunirunney.Kesaven and Vishnu were my benchmates then. Avarodoppamaanu thudakathil njn lunch kazhikaan poyyirunne. Ippozhalochikumbo mukhathu chirivarunna oru cheriya kaaryam undu. It goes so…

Aadyamokke enniku vishnuvinodu oralpam deshyam thonnitundu. He was a left hander.Aadyamokke njn avante edathu vasathu irikendi varumaarunu. Aappo avanu vechezhutaan koodutal sthalm vendivarum. Athu kondu tanne enniku atrem sthalm kurayukayum cheyum. Initially I thought he was doing it deliberately. He wasn’t my friend then. LP sectionilum UPsectionilum ithupole alochihtundu.

Enathayalum athe njn thanne pinnidulla etrayo kaalam avante edathu vasathu kesavane irikaan sa,athikaathe manapoorvam irikumaarunu. Entho kesavan irunnaa Vishnunnu nere ezhutaan pattila ennu thonniyirunaatu kaaranamaanu njn athu cheythiruney. Vishnuvumorrikal athu nerritu paranajittundennoru orma. Annu avan athu paranjappo I felt good.We all like to be acknowledged, right? athoke potte…

Pinneyum Thelly sir avatharichu.Mattu sirmaarum thelly sirum tammil undaayirunna vetyasam addehathinne kayyil edukaan pattila ennathaanu. Note ezhuthi edukaan ennu parayaan note tarilla. Parayunnathil ninnu note ezhuthiyal athum kuttam. Pullikaaranu chodyangal aarunnu ellam. Nammuku adeham oru chodyachinnavum :D

Aadya classukalil 2^nd rowil 1^st benchil oru penkutty irikumaarunnu. Orma.Kaanan kuzhapamilla.Luks Chinese :D Thelly sirne impress cheaanano ennariyilla aa kutti doubt engando chodichu chennu.athinu aa kochine aa manushyan konnu kolavilichu. Athode thelli sirne class motham veruthu ennanu ente vishvaasam. Njn veruthu.

Prayavum arivum onnumallla oru mansuhsyane manushyan aakkunathu.Elimayaanu ennu aa valiya manushan maranitundaavanam.Prayam orupaadu aayathalle.Maravi koodum…

Pinne aa azcha njngalde vandaanath veetil randu rerepeaters koodi ethi.Kevin chettanum Aauz ikkayum.Randuperum aa varsam kittumo elle enna samsaayavumaayi nilkunnavar.Aauz ikkayude samsaara reethi nallathaayirunnu.kettal kettukondirukum.angane irikke aadya weekly test vannu. Vaikuneram result arinjappol swapna kottakal takrana pole thonni.rank was 73 I beliv.oralpam vishamam thonni.

Chellumbo longtermilo onnumillarunna ella newly recruited entrance thozhilaalikalum kaanikunna abhadhangal tanne njnum kaanichu.Anaavasyamaayi GRByum Trumanum vaayichu kooti. evidunu padikanam ennonnum arinjoodaayirunnu. Kittunna Bookukal ellam vaayikaan shramichu.Evolution njn GRByum okke aanu vaayiche.Appo NCERT entha ennu ariyilla. Arjun vazhiyaaanu ariyunnathu.Ennitu niruthiyo ? ella. Still for some more time I followed all books other than NCERT.NCERT kayil ellayirunnu ennathum oru valiya kaaranamaayirunnu. Ente evolution selfmade notes were so enormous. Atrayonnum vendaa ennu manasilaavan pinnem etra kaalameduthu! Ennitum njn athu vechu tanneya padichirunne avasaanam vare :D

Ethinte edaykku palahousil room orenam ozhivundennu kettu. So kesavan vazhi Manjesh sirne parichaya pettu.Ippozhum ormayundu.Kesavan was talking to a boy. Njnum koode chennu ninnu.oru kootukaaranodu samsaarikumpole alla kesavan samsaarikunnathu. Njnum pullikaarane nokki chirichu.Appo kesavan parichayapeduthi “ethaanu manjesh sir,njngalde warden” ennu.

Vereyum ithu ple orupaadu kathakal undu.Palahousil aadyam ethiya etho payyan “warden evideyaa ?” ennu thirakiyathu sirnodaanu ennoru kadha undu.

pinne orikal manjapitham seasonal njnum kesavanum okke sirnodu samsaarichondu nilkumbol joelnte achan avide vannu. Joel vanno ennokke thirakki. Ennittu nammade koode ninnu vishesham okke thirakkki. Ennitu ellam kazhinju chodichu “Warden ille. Athu kondaano ingane ninnu samsaarikunne “ennu.Appo manjesh sirnte mugham kaanendathaayirunnu :D

So Palahouil room othu.Pokunathnte thale divasam kazhinja varsam palahousuil aayirunna Aauz ikkayum Kevin chettanum koodi palahousile Thomas sirnte kroorakrityangalum, raatri muzhuvan purathu niruthiyathum,balarama vaayichennu hostelil ninnnum oru buji chettane purathaakiaya kathayum,angane anganeorupaadi kathakal.ellathinumappuram Roys canteenile rubber sheet poleyulla parotaaye pattiyum,shadpada(insects) curryum .Aauz ikkayude sareera prakrtham kandappo parayunnathil satyamundennu thonni… :D

So annu raatri kazhuvi unnakiya thunniyum.Pustakangal kuthi niracha bagum oru bucketum oru mugumokke kondu pokaan perukki vechittu kidannu.

Aa samayathokke raatri urankgaan kidakumbo divaaswapnam kaaanenemaarunnu...Raatri divaswapnam kaanunnnu ennu parayunathil thettundo? Undenkil sahikuka.talkaalam I don’t have another word for daydreaming to suit nights :D

Ethaayirunnu palayil chenna hari. All he wanted was to punish himself and to make up for somethings. And for that he chose pala house. Of course wrong place for sumone who wished to do it the way he wished :D But the right place for making it all up… A “jail” wich freed me…

Angane swayam shiksikkan shramichathu kondu , I got the best days of my life… :D

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hari

Aadya aazcha... part -1

H1 classinte akathu keri irrunu.muriyil aake onnu parathi nokki.ariyaavnna aarelum. Sidil irrunna payyane kandappo koode padicha Tony Simon feel. So njn angottu parichayapettu.Sarath. Parichaya pettapol vicharichirunilla bhaaviyil evanne kure errattaperu vilikum ennonnum. Sarath seemed a very sensible guy in his way of talking. He didn’t talk much either. But I thought he would make a gud friend becoz he luked like tony. Presumption, wich ofcoz turned out to be wrong. Again learned dat 1^st impression never holds :D

Sarathnte apppurathu girl’s hostelukalde ronchamamngalil oral aayi bhavicha Kesavan undaayirunnu. Thiruvananthapurathu ninnum oraale kittiyapo veetil pokaan company aavumallo ennashvasichu. skoolum evidaa taamasam ennumokke ennu tammil chodicharinju.

I actually saw pala as a place to punish myself for all that I didn’t do for the previous 2 years. Ajith enne kuttapeduthaarulla ente oru swabaavam aanu athu. I punish myself for many things. So Sarathnodum kesavanodum adhikam samsaarchilla. I didn’t want friends here. That wasn’t why I was here.I just wanted to punish myself. I wanted to make siure ipravasyam kittyilenkil polum I shudnt be able to blame myself. So the talkative Harimohan whom you know remained silent. Hmm..for how long? J lets see…

Anil sirnte evolution aayirunnu aadya hour.I liked his lecture. Above all sirne kaanumbo malayikeezhil ene padipichitulla pradeep sirne pole thonni.

Adutha period was by the legendary ‘ThomasThelly’.Sirnte soosamayum sosaamayude thengayum pookalum pookalude vastramilaymayum manushyante vastram kondu maraykallum,nammude vivaram illaymayum,njngade entrance kittathe pokunna aa bhaaviyum angane angane pala karyangalum parnaju aa manshyan aadya classil tanne swayam verupichittu poyi.

Pinne Mathew sirnte Atomic structure in chemisty.That wasn’t boring.

Ithinte ellam edaykku epozho Stephen sir classil vannu.Annu sir paranja chilla kaaryangal innum ormayundu “ningal ningalal aavunathu aathmaartamaai padikuka. rank orlapam kuranjaalum oru kuttabodhavum thonnathey veetil vilichu parayamallo ningal padichuvennu”. Avasaanam aa varsam kazhinjappozhum veetukaar ulpade palrudeyum kuttapeduthalukal kelkumbozhum athonum koosaathey nilkaan kazhinjathum ee vaakukalde balathilaanu. Aatmaarthathmaarunnu shramamenkil mattareyum onnum bodhipikkenda kaaryamilla enna vishvaasam.

Ethallam kazhiju uchaykku vittu.Thazhe ennem kaathu achanaano gopi maamano nilpundaarunnu aara ennu orkunilla.enne vilichondu Paying guest aayi taamasikaan arrange cheytha aa veetil kondu poyi. “Vandaanath” ennayirunnu veetuperu. I had the small corner room. There was a bed ,a small table.and a chair. Coveril kurachu saadanangal kattilil vechitundaarunnu.Some chocolates some biscults a packet of mixture etc.Ponkunnathu taamasichirunnappo ithu poloru cheriya muri aayirunnu achantethennu achan paranjathaayi orkunnu. Ottanottathil muri ishtapettu.

Veetil ninnu maarinilkanam.doore evidelum ninnu padikanam.independant aavanam ennokke alochichu nadanirunna ennikku pala was a way out. Ippo SUTyil veetil ninnu poyyivarunathine patti Anil comment adichitundu .“veeteenu doore maari nikanam ennu paranju nadanavanaa ippo divasom veetinnu poyyi varunne” enna mattil oru dialogue. Vicharikunna poleyaano allel thane ellam nadakunne!!! Ellam nadanollum ….enganeyenkilumokke… Self help ppl and inspiring ppl say with will u can reach anywhere. Finally ethaathirunappol aashvaasamaayathu “forrest gump”ile oru dialougil abahayam praapichu

“I don't know if we each have a destiny, or if we're all just floating around accidental-like on a breeze, but I, I think maybe it's both. Maybe both is happening at the same time.”

Innum njnkaatil ozhuki nadakuvaanennu thonnipokunnu :P

Koode aa veetil appo arjun enu perulla oru ‘both’ aanu undaayirunne. ”Both “ennu vechal repeating for engg and med. Enniku avan tarikidayaanennu oralapam samsayam undaarunnu. Paavamaayirunu kaanum. Sherikum paranja arinjooda. Never stayed der long enuf to judge…

Arun ennu oru payyan undennum, avan veetil poyyirikuvaanennum Arjun parnaju. Annu njn avar poyyi kazhinju bhayankara paditom okke aayirunnu. Raatri kazikaan kurachu appurathulla oru veetil pokanam .Athaarunnu mess. Avidem undaayirunnu kurachu piler.Ippo Trivandrum medical collegil padkunna arjun,pine njn kandal thirichariunna enal peru arinjoodatha chillar. Vijayalekshmi madathinte CNS physiology classesil paranja oru avastha ennikundennu ennikepozhum thoonarundu.Nominal aphasia.I can recognize faces.But am bad at remembering names.Brillaintil divasom kaanukayum samsaarikukayum cheythirunna palardeyum peru enniku ariyillarunnu. Bhayankaramaayi samsaarichirunna palarodum pinneedu peru chodikaan oru madi undaayirunnu. Itrem naal appo peru ariyatheyaano samsaairche ennu avar vichaarikoole ennokke alochichitaavanam .

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Adutha Divasamaanu njn Vishnu S ne parichayapettathu. Kesavan aanu enne Vishnu ne parichayapeduthiyathu . Left hander.His chettan repeated at Pala and got 92nd or so in kerala.So according to kesavan he was going to do the same. Vishnu said he had rank in 2000s in the first try.Kesavan was round 1650.chuttum irruanvarokke ennekaal orupaadu mukalail rank undaayirunavaraayirunnu. Athu valiyaa kaaryamaayitt orikalum thonniyitilla…

Vannittu randu divasame aayullu.But aa weekendil kesavan veetil pokkunnennu paranjappo ennikum koode ponam ennu thonni.My first journey home from pala from Kottayam railway station, the place which helped me complete my rk narayan buk collection. Njngal Manikoorukalolam vaayinokkem kathivekkem okke cheythitulla station. Kesavan yaatrede kaaryam samsaarikumbozhaanu enne Gohulnu parichayapeduthiyathu.Kesavan and Gohul had sumthings in common.Both were from pala house. Both were bujis(angane parayumbo cheetah vilikalledaa :D). Avar paranjaanu njn palahousen patti aadymaayi kelkunne. Oru kaaragraham pole aanatre!!! Athine pattti parayaam J in a better way :D

Sir enthino choodayappo vishamam thonniya kaaryavum okke annu kesavan paranju. Avanu thirike pokanam ennaayirunnu aagraham.1^st entrance rank vechu evidelum medicine kitttanam ennundaarunnu. Somewhere :D and now he is in AIIMS :D

Annu koode Kesavanum Gohulum thrishooril padikunna gohulnte chettanum ,SUTyil ente senior aayi padikunna Visakhum ellam undaayirunnu.Athu vare samsaaram adakki pidichu vechiruna njn annanu evarodokke samsaarichu thudangiye. Trainil vechu vadayum chamandeem medichu tannu gohulnte chettan.kure samsaarichu njngal tammil. Gohulnte chettante oru fan aayi. chettanu njn oru koora chaluan aanu ena bodhyavum vannu :D evide chennalum aa peru veezhumallo :D

Vettil vannu veetukaarodokke oralpam samsaarichittu netil keri . During those days I used to daydream about a girl.aa praayathil athu cheyaatha aarumilla.peronnum parayanilla.lets call her by a algebraic name.let her name be ‘Ms.X’.Before hand I would say,this no longer exists.aa SIM njn upekshichittu varsam onnayi. Ippo mobile polum ella ennu parayaam). Annu raatri muzhuvanum netil kuthiyirunnu.Veronnum cheyanillathondum,Ms.X netil varumenna false hopum okkeyaayi.Aake netil kandathu gauthaminem okkeyaaarunnu enna orma…Paatum kettu raatri muzhuvan irunnu.avide chennal paatonnum kelkaan pattilalo…veetil varunathe kootukaare kaanan povanum paatu kelkaanumanennu ippo thonnunu.thonnal alla…satymaanu…

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First face...

Innum valare vyakthamaayi ormayundu Brilliantile aadya divasam.Enniku paakamallatha, innum idaan madikunna aa valiya orange column shirtum(!st MB vacationu njn athu kondu poyyi cheruthaaki ennu ariyichukollunnu :D), Batayude jubilee cherupum(bhaviyil “kaasiminte cherippu” enna peru veena cherupum) ittu ‘D batch’ ennu officil ezhuthi vitta ID cardumaayi thikkilum thirakilllum paadu pettu brillaintile etttavum mukalile nilayil kayari chennu.

Mukalil valathottu thirinjal aadya classinte munnil oru chechi nilkunnu. Kandappo aadyam manasil strike cheytha face was Ajana’s,who was a schoolmate of mine.That was Minnu miss. Her ever-smiling face was the first face that striked me at pala. ”D batch” ennu mark cheythu vita id card kaanichittum ini ee thirakkil tappi nadakenda enno matto paranjenne aa clasil ketti iruthi. Pallil kambi ittitudaayirunenkilum miss chirikunnathu kaanan nalla bhangiyaarunnu.athu pole thane pallil kambi kidakunnathu kaaranam chilla vaakukal nere vazhangilla. Missne ariyathe palapozhum chechiennu vilichittundu. Kettitudno aavo!! She gave me the feel of a caring elder sister…

Mikka pillerude perum aa chechi(ippozhenkilum angane vilichotte) pettanu thane padicheduthu.Personal aayi ellarkum care kodukuka ennathu brilliantile ella class teachersnteyum joliyude bhaagamaanallo. Chechiyum athu cheythu. Njn chellumbo ippo mala marichukalayaam ennu vicharichu nadannitu aadya pareekshaykku 73 rank aanu medichathu. Report card sign cheytha shesham nerrittu kondu elpikanam class teachersne. Annanu aadyamaayi samsaarikunnathu.Adutha praavasyam 50nullil keranam ennu paranju vittu.Pothuve mukhathe musclesnte purtahu control illayirunna enniku annathe mukha bhaavam chammalinteth aayirunno ennu ippozhum ariyilla. Wish I cud develop sum control over my facial muscles. Adutha praavasyam rank was in the 60s. Annu poyyi kandappo ingane aanel oru 6 pareeksha kazhiyumbo aadya pathil varumallo ennu miss paranju chirichathu ormayundu.

I have always needed a driving force for anything I do. I believed that she was one of the driving forces for me to work harder. Njn randaamathe examnu card kodukaan chennappo enniku AFMCyil kittanam ennanu aagraham. Avide kittyal TVM medical collegil kittyal polum cherathilla ennumokke paranju. AFMC written exam clear cheythappo njn aadyam ariyikanam ennalochichatu chechiye aanu. Pattiyilla.Thirakaaanjitalla. Engu ninnum fone numbero addresso onnum kittiyilla.chillapo AFMC finally ennikku kittilla ennathu kondaavam annu vilikaan pataathe poyathu.(juz like the letters that I wrote to Tom before every AFMC event like juz b4 written exam,juz ater written test result came, on the eve of interview never got posted)

Ella Monday eveningilum Kesavano Nikhilno Vishnuvineo okke prize undel athokke kodutha shesham miss rank vaayikkum.Kazhinja thavanayekaal nalla rankaanel kai kottaan parayum ellarodum. Nammal uzhapumenkil swantam chechimar choriyum pole onnu choriyum. Classil ettavum nannayi padkunavare pole thane ellareyum missnu valiyaa kaaryamaarunnu.I still remember her asking me if arun rajendran was “uzhaping” at hostel.Chechi poyyapo replacement aayi vanna missnu toppersne maatramaarunnu kaaryam ennu .thonnumaayirunnu.thonnal alla ennu Vishnu s and arun reinforece cheyumaarunnu. Avar vannathinte adutha aazhchayaanu enniku brilliant batch examsil kittiyitulla ettavum nalla rank kittye.”32”.ippozhum ormayundu.’Minnu miss undaayirunel’ ennu njn aalochichathu.Aa rank annu shradhichilla,urakke vaayichilla. Njngalkku rank koodiyaal prolsaahanavum illa,Kuranjal upadesom illa. Pinne aa aazcha palahousil ennikoru cheriya presnam undaayathu kondu avidem vaayichilla.athine patti pinnorikal parayaam. Toppersil aarkelum cheriya variation enkilum vannal anweshikum. Athil thane vishnuvinum ethe complaint undaarunnu puthya missne patti.

One memory still stands out. Orikal rank kuranju poya aazhcha…Annu Ajithne friendaayi kittyitilla.So desp aayi ottaykku nadannu break muzhuvan. Report cardumaayi kaanaan pokaan madichu. Engane face cheyum? Parayunnathil madi vicharikunnila karachilinte vakkil aayirunnu. Orupaadu thottitundu skoolil, engum onnumaayirunilla. Annu padikaanjitaayirunnu thottirunnathu. Ithu nannayi work chethittum rank kuranju poyyi. Oduvil break theeraaraayappo madichu madichu cardumaayi chennu.Engane face cheyumennokke aarunnu alochichirunne. Ente mukhathu ninnum athokke vaayichittennavanam onnum paranjilla “kuzhapilla.adutha praavasyam sheriyaakyamathi” ennu maatram paranju.Njn onnum paranjilla.Annu miss kuduthal vallom samsaarichrunel thaniye ente kannu niranjene.Pothuve aanungalkku kannu nirayunnathum karachilum ellam chammal aanallo… Boys don’t cry ennale parayuka

Orikal achan missne kaanan vannu. Appo orikal polum miss enne kuttam paranjilla. Enniku urapaayum AFMC kittumennum allenkil thane Kerala kazhinjalle AFMC ,keralakku mark kutti kazhinju aarum AFMC ezhuthoola ennumokke. Oru chechi swantam aniyante bhaagathe thettukal kandittum thalli parayaatha pole.Avante nallathine kooti parayum pole. Ninakennum nallathu maatre varoo ennu anugrahikum poleyokke…

Edaykkoru divasam pettannu classil kayarivannu puthiya “Oru coursenu kitti athu kondu njn pokuva.Ningalokke nannayi padikaam.uzhaparuthu ” Ennu parayaan vannapol nammude mukhangalil enna pole aa mukhatum vishamam prakadamaayirunu. Nannayi ormayundu annu aalochichathu. “chillapo thirichu varumaayirikum” ennu.Athinte adutha divasam muthal kurachu divasam njn brillaintil sthiramaayi autograph book kondupokumaarunnu.vanaalo orikal koodi…

Kesavante koode ninnu orupaadu praavasyam missnodu samsaarichitundu.ariyaathe annu palapozhum chechi ennu vilichittumundu.Njn athu orkunnundu.Pakshe chechi njn angane vilichathu kettitundaavumo? Oraayiram mukhangal brillaintil kanda aa chechikku ee anniyane orma kaanumo avo !!! (orkaan pattya sadanam ennaro alochikunna pole ;) )

Eppo evideyaavum? Evideyaayalum santhoshamaayirikatte.

Ennenkilum evideyenkilum vechu kaanumennu vishvasikaam.

Bhoomi urundathalle! Kaanum urapaayum…

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hari

Palayilottu...

28^th May , 2010

Two years ago this very same day I still remember talking to my father sitting in the hall around 10 in the morning, telling him for the first time that i wanted to be a “somethings else’.Repeat cheyunilla ennu eppozhum paranjirunna pole veendum veendum parayunundaarunnnu annum.

A basic degree. Then off to the course I wanted to do. That was what I had in my mind. He talked me into BA +MA integrated course of five years in the same college I was talking about. Then added trying for Civil services later. That was the same thing as going for medicine I protested. He said my dream was an insecure one and that he didn’t want me to make a decision ,I would regret later in life. His practical mind might have feared my failure. Allenkil tanne aarkaa oru urapppu parayaan pattuka entha enganaa ennokke...

Jipmer koodi baaki undaarunnu aa varsahm oru entrance aayi ,which was on June 8^th if I remember rite. I told him that I would work hard for that one and if I got, that was that, I would go for medicine else I would go for B.A.

Jipmer!!! Kerala kittathavanu jimper. Chirikunundaaavum vayikunnavar!!!!

To make an honest try with JIPMER I decided to stay at Malayinkil and study staying at my old home where there weren’t anything distract me(except for my father’s old novel collection and his personal diaries :D ). During the stay, on June 1^st night achan came up with a talk which ended up with a question “avasaanam onnoodi chodikukayaa nee repeat chyunundo?”

Till a moment ago adamant Hari suddenly wavered. Dont know why.I answered “nale raavile parayaam.Innu raatri koodi aalochchittu”

I found it a really hard night to sleep. All night I justified my decision.’Why should I repeat if the real dream is sumthing else?’ It seemed so logical. The answer was decided. One final ‘no’. So repeating was decided to be out of question. And the irony is in the fact that repeat cheytha shesham result vannappo vicharicha onnum kittyilla kerala rank vechu govt college kittiyila ennathum okke kondu BAkku cheraan application koduthenkilum orikal koodi repeat cheytaaalo ennalochichu. Repeatee cheyilla ennu paranja ee njn tanne… nattellinnu balam illanjitaavum alle? Enthayalum…

Next morning I went to my achan. After some small talk and my father’s sthiram long talk he asked the expected question. Then something happened . I said ‘yes’ Instantaneously.Unexpected. I still wonder what made me say it. Athu kallam alla.arinju kondo aalochicho alla paranjathu. Paranjum poyyi. Orikkal repeat cheyilla ennu paranjathu maati paranjathil tanne adhikam vishamam undaayrunna enniku parayan vishamam ulla enniku pinne paranjathil tanne urachu nilkaam ennu thonni

Malayikeezhu veetil vechalle... So ethilellam upari njn vishvasichirunu athu marichu poya ente ammooma enne kondu parayichatha ennu. Ennum malayinkeezhile ente muriyil kidakumbo I beliv ammoma is there ennu and I like believing so. Njnum ammomayum ore muriyil aayirunnu kidappu. Ente muri was just a part of her room…

Aadyam ezhuthya pravasyavum I was attracted to AFMC. So I added,repeat cheythal njn govt colleil medicine allel AFMC kittiyaale povoo.

Ellel nerathey parnaja pole BA ennu. Ironically ithil randilum alla ippo njn. Am in a private college. Paranja vaaku veendum paalichilla…athe nattelinte bala kuravu allathe pinne???

Regrets thonnarilla palapozhum. Pakshe maati parayendi vanna oroninnum edaykide swaym chammum. Vallorum “nee ingane paranjatalle. Pinnenthu patti” ennu chodikumbo uttaram muttti nilkum. But dats ok. Orukaalathu daialouge adichitalle!!! :D

The very next day achan went to both PC and Pala. I was for Pala becoz I heard that we had to do questions from chapters before they were taught at PC. Since I didn’t work except for the final 2 months in 12^th, Everything was greek for me. Achan also felt Pala was better. It was fixed. Before JIPMER , I had to go to school for getting board exam certificates. It looked more of a reunion. Alla,ellarum onnichu koodunathine alle reunion ennu vilikunne.

Oralpam chammalode njn avarde munnil aa news pottichu that I was going to repeating. Chataalum repeat cheyilla ennu veeravaadam paranja njn repeat cheyunnu ennu kelkumbo avarenne puchikkumo ennu njn pedichirrunnu. But palayil poyyal avide vechu ithinellam make up cheyanam. Aadyam muthale work cheyanam. Avide topper aavanam.ethokkeyaayirnnu anu manasil. Athe mala marikaam enna swapnangalumaayi tanneya palayilottu poyye. But Malayonnum marichilla :D Marimaayam onnum kaatiyathumilla.

Venkiyum athu ingottu parayumaarunnu.He was inspiring. If I said I wanted to go for the thing I wanted to go for he would say ‘then go for it’.If I said I was going to repeat he would say ‘nannayi padikanam’.athukondaavaam njn avanodu paranjathu ‘avide examsnu kittunna aadya prize ninakku taraam’ ennu. Onnum kittiyillada… :P

JIPMER kazhinju. Engane aayirunennu parayandallo. Paalayilottu pokaanulla tayyaeduppu nadakuvaarunnu.caril aanu pokunathu ennarinjapozhe ettavum ishatamulla kure paatukal write cheythu vechu. Avide chennal pinne paattonumillalo.pokunna vazhi muzhuvan paatu kettu.

After an overnight drive we reached pala by 4;30 in the morning .hotel maharaniyil aayirunnu annu stay.

Oru kutti-urakkam kazhinju ennittu kulicha shesham Briliantilottu tirichu.Muthollyil ninnum thirinju oralpam munottu ethiyappo muthale vandikaldem pillerdem parentsintem oru pravaaham .

And that day got my pink bordered Brillaint folder.ID card kitty. Annu aadyaa diasamaayondu vaikuneram vare class kaanilla ennu vishvasichu. Sabarimalayile pole thirakku.ellarum “padikerunnu”. Njnum keri ente classum thrirakki kondu.

D-batch thirakki poya njn ethi pettathu H1 batchil. Ethenda idathe ethu,ethunna idam ethenda idam tanneyaavum ennathinte oru thelivaayi vishvasikunnu ithine. Jeevitom ingane okke tanneyaavum enna vishvaasathil vicharicha idangalail ethaaathe varumbo swayam aashvasipichu kondu jeevichu pokunnu ippozhum…

Any that was how I reached Pala. Paranjathokke maati parayendi vannathil chammal maatrame ullu. Vishamam illa. Kaaranam, it gave me one year full of memories, one building full of friends and sumone to call whichever district I am at…