Palayilottu...

28^th May , 2010

Two years ago this very same day I still remember talking to my father sitting in the hall around 10 in the morning, telling him for the first time that i wanted to be a “somethings else’.Repeat cheyunilla ennu eppozhum paranjirunna pole veendum veendum parayunundaarunnnu annum.

A basic degree. Then off to the course I wanted to do. That was what I had in my mind. He talked me into BA +MA integrated course of five years in the same college I was talking about. Then added trying for Civil services later. That was the same thing as going for medicine I protested. He said my dream was an insecure one and that he didn’t want me to make a decision ,I would regret later in life. His practical mind might have feared my failure. Allenkil tanne aarkaa oru urapppu parayaan pattuka entha enganaa ennokke...

Jipmer koodi baaki undaarunnu aa varsahm oru entrance aayi ,which was on June 8^th if I remember rite. I told him that I would work hard for that one and if I got, that was that, I would go for medicine else I would go for B.A.

Jipmer!!! Kerala kittathavanu jimper. Chirikunundaaavum vayikunnavar!!!!

To make an honest try with JIPMER I decided to stay at Malayinkil and study staying at my old home where there weren’t anything distract me(except for my father’s old novel collection and his personal diaries :D ). During the stay, on June 1^st night achan came up with a talk which ended up with a question “avasaanam onnoodi chodikukayaa nee repeat chyunundo?”

Till a moment ago adamant Hari suddenly wavered. Dont know why.I answered “nale raavile parayaam.Innu raatri koodi aalochchittu”

I found it a really hard night to sleep. All night I justified my decision.’Why should I repeat if the real dream is sumthing else?’ It seemed so logical. The answer was decided. One final ‘no’. So repeating was decided to be out of question. And the irony is in the fact that repeat cheytha shesham result vannappo vicharicha onnum kittyilla kerala rank vechu govt college kittiyila ennathum okke kondu BAkku cheraan application koduthenkilum orikal koodi repeat cheytaaalo ennalochichu. Repeatee cheyilla ennu paranja ee njn tanne… nattellinnu balam illanjitaavum alle? Enthayalum…

Next morning I went to my achan. After some small talk and my father’s sthiram long talk he asked the expected question. Then something happened . I said ‘yes’ Instantaneously.Unexpected. I still wonder what made me say it. Athu kallam alla.arinju kondo aalochicho alla paranjathu. Paranjum poyyi. Orikkal repeat cheyilla ennu paranjathu maati paranjathil tanne adhikam vishamam undaayrunna enniku parayan vishamam ulla enniku pinne paranjathil tanne urachu nilkaam ennu thonni

Malayikeezhu veetil vechalle... So ethilellam upari njn vishvasichirunu athu marichu poya ente ammooma enne kondu parayichatha ennu. Ennum malayinkeezhile ente muriyil kidakumbo I beliv ammoma is there ennu and I like believing so. Njnum ammomayum ore muriyil aayirunnu kidappu. Ente muri was just a part of her room…

Aadyam ezhuthya pravasyavum I was attracted to AFMC. So I added,repeat cheythal njn govt colleil medicine allel AFMC kittiyaale povoo.

Ellel nerathey parnaja pole BA ennu. Ironically ithil randilum alla ippo njn. Am in a private college. Paranja vaaku veendum paalichilla…athe nattelinte bala kuravu allathe pinne???

Regrets thonnarilla palapozhum. Pakshe maati parayendi vanna oroninnum edaykide swaym chammum. Vallorum “nee ingane paranjatalle. Pinnenthu patti” ennu chodikumbo uttaram muttti nilkum. But dats ok. Orukaalathu daialouge adichitalle!!! :D

The very next day achan went to both PC and Pala. I was for Pala becoz I heard that we had to do questions from chapters before they were taught at PC. Since I didn’t work except for the final 2 months in 12^th, Everything was greek for me. Achan also felt Pala was better. It was fixed. Before JIPMER , I had to go to school for getting board exam certificates. It looked more of a reunion. Alla,ellarum onnichu koodunathine alle reunion ennu vilikunne.

Oralpam chammalode njn avarde munnil aa news pottichu that I was going to repeating. Chataalum repeat cheyilla ennu veeravaadam paranja njn repeat cheyunnu ennu kelkumbo avarenne puchikkumo ennu njn pedichirrunnu. But palayil poyyal avide vechu ithinellam make up cheyanam. Aadyam muthale work cheyanam. Avide topper aavanam.ethokkeyaayirnnu anu manasil. Athe mala marikaam enna swapnangalumaayi tanneya palayilottu poyye. But Malayonnum marichilla :D Marimaayam onnum kaatiyathumilla.

Venkiyum athu ingottu parayumaarunnu.He was inspiring. If I said I wanted to go for the thing I wanted to go for he would say ‘then go for it’.If I said I was going to repeat he would say ‘nannayi padikanam’.athukondaavaam njn avanodu paranjathu ‘avide examsnu kittunna aadya prize ninakku taraam’ ennu. Onnum kittiyillada… :P

JIPMER kazhinju. Engane aayirunennu parayandallo. Paalayilottu pokaanulla tayyaeduppu nadakuvaarunnu.caril aanu pokunathu ennarinjapozhe ettavum ishatamulla kure paatukal write cheythu vechu. Avide chennal pinne paattonumillalo.pokunna vazhi muzhuvan paatu kettu.

After an overnight drive we reached pala by 4;30 in the morning .hotel maharaniyil aayirunnu annu stay.

Oru kutti-urakkam kazhinju ennittu kulicha shesham Briliantilottu tirichu.Muthollyil ninnum thirinju oralpam munottu ethiyappo muthale vandikaldem pillerdem parentsintem oru pravaaham .

And that day got my pink bordered Brillaint folder.ID card kitty. Annu aadyaa diasamaayondu vaikuneram vare class kaanilla ennu vishvasichu. Sabarimalayile pole thirakku.ellarum “padikerunnu”. Njnum keri ente classum thrirakki kondu.

D-batch thirakki poya njn ethi pettathu H1 batchil. Ethenda idathe ethu,ethunna idam ethenda idam tanneyaavum ennathinte oru thelivaayi vishvasikunnu ithine. Jeevitom ingane okke tanneyaavum enna vishvaasathil vicharicha idangalail ethaaathe varumbo swayam aashvasipichu kondu jeevichu pokunnu ippozhum…

Any that was how I reached Pala. Paranjathokke maati parayendi vannathil chammal maatrame ullu. Vishamam illa. Kaaranam, it gave me one year full of memories, one building full of friends and sumone to call whichever district I am at…